watch movie - go pak toh!!

yesterday went on a mini pak toh date with hubby at JP... spent a few hours there.. we went for movie, Red Cliff II.. watched the 1st part last year liao, so this year no matter what also must watch the 2nd part..

very nice show... but the ending wasn't really what i've read from the book.. i think they did change some details in the movie..

There r many handsome gentlemen in the movie... like Takeshi n Tony... but the 1 who caught my attention most of the time is Hu Jun, whose role is Zhao Zi Long.. i find him very suave in the movie... Tony has character.. but Takeshi look not handsome in his moustache leh..
the character which i think is rather redundant is Xiao Qiao, starring Lin Zhiling... no special reason.. just feel like whether has her or not in the movie makes no difference.. at least Zhao Wei's role Shang Xiang is more favourable, n heard of this character in history.. worth watching lah..

2009's 1st movie we watched this year... looking forward to catch another worth-watching movie..

Loves his smiles

this little precious of ours is getting better each day.. at the same time, he is getting naughtier too.. haha... he wants us to talk to him.. when we talk to him as he wanted, he will smile at us happily..

if we play with him, he will also smile.. he is in good mood haha!!! but of course, if he is in bad mood, he will scream out loud n cry.. he doesn't like to b carried for too long.. he will whine n want us to put him back to the sarong to rest... he will look around n play on his own sometimes until he is tired, then he will doze off..

sometimes he overslept, time for milk is over... by the time he wakes up, he is super hungry, then he will sob n cry cry cry.. if we r slow by a minute or two, he will cry loudly, as if we r mistreating him, he will also have tears coming out from his eyes...

it was a bad week for all of us last week.. but these few days, he started to smile, n i'm very happy to see that... last week, he cried everyday n no smiles at all.. after all those unhappy events, whenever i see him smile, i will b very happy n love his smiles... he is going to b 2 months old next week... he is becoming v clever liao...

he knows we r bringing him out for shopping, he will b very busy looking around, but when reached shopping centre liao, the cold air con makes him drowsy n doze off... hmmm.. many ppl said he will b a very talkative boy when he grows older.. n some said his eyes r those eyes which will attract lots of girls next time.. haha.. i predict he will b a very mischievous boy..

but most imptly, he must b obedient, when we tell him something, he must b able to listen.. all these need to b taught since young.. but nothing is more impt than his health, right?? keep smiling my son...

The Stupid, The Naive & The Wise

quotes from Thomas Szasz: The stupid neither forgets nor forgive; The naive forgive and forgets; The wise forgive but do not forget.

I used to be the Stupid... but now, i will try to b the Wise, but i definitely won't b the Naive... i blif only ppl like my hubby will b the Naive..

i always tell hubby, can b a good man, but not all the time, otherwise ppl will take advantage or take for granted.. there r so many ppl around us r typical type one, super damn lazy n will take advantage of ppl who r good to them.. super buay tahan..

Ppl who dunno me well said, i look very fierce, n like an ice berg, not easy to get close to.. isit?? haha.. mayb i am,in some ways. but i trust my feelings a lot.. if there r ppl who i dun feel comfortable with, i won't want to talk to that person, or ppl who i dislike i will also do that. but if i feel comfortable, i will talk a lot..i prefer ppl who r honest, hate ppl who r proud n arrogant, when talking like to show off this n that..

if some1 treats me well, i will appreciate n b good to him/her too.. but if tat person doesn't show respect to me, dun ever wish i will make the 1st move.. just wait n see, i will snub that person 1 day.ppl said i have sharp tongue, n indeed i am.. dun force me ok??? but i feel lucky, in my life, there r so many ppl ard me r good to me..n i love them!! sometimes i will walk btwn the Stupid n the Wise, but trust me, i will try my utmost best to walk into the Wise route.. but something not changed, my facial expression n my body language.

Overfeed AGAIN??

brought Jaden to see a doctor yesterday night.. he has been vomitting out his milk a few times liao.. not just a sip or two, but just like a fountain of milk.. got worried, so brought him to see a doc at Pioneer Mall.. Doctor said he's overfed again..

WHAT?? overfeed again?? previously when we brought him to polyclinic for his HepB injection, doc already asked us to reduce the amount of milk, n we followed suit.. had reduced already n now have to reduce again... in fact, he can drink that much, but not all the time... N we all agreed that Jaden is very tan chi... but his stomach cannot take it.. tats y will vomit.. n somemore is, after drinking, is not vomitting immediately, but an hour later... we will reduce the milk.. if he kept crying for more, then will stuff pacifier for him..

in the noon yest, he vomitted worst.. not just fountain as well, but he choked his nose.. pain until he cried so badly n super loudly.. can hear n sense that he is in pain.. i was so heart pain n worried tat i also cried.. dunno wat to do.. luckily MIL was around, coz we were at in-laws house when this matter happened.. I was so sad to see him cry, n esp when he wailed so loudly that he is frustrated..

yesterday's incident made me so sad n worried.. when on the way back, i told hubby, i admit bb is hard to raise n take care, n esp see him so miserable yesterday tat his nose was choked due to vomitting.. it made me really scared to have a brother/sister in the next coming years to accompany him... Actually, Jaden is not considered as hard to take care, neither is he easy to take care too.. he only cries when he is in discomfort or hungry.. he will sleep too.. sometimes when he dun wana sleep, he wants ppl to talk to him while he lie on his mattress.. or play with him.. he dun like to b carried for too long, he would want to lie down on his own in his sarong.. sometimes he wants to b alone, until he is tired, he will just sleep n rest.. but his temper is just like me, quite bad ya..

no parents want to see their children cry or being sick, neither do I.. we will just keep monitoring him n b patient, coz after all, babies dunno how to talk to express their feelings.. all they know is to cry... i must convince myself that..

Random thoughts

too many thoughts to b included in this entry.. hope i can remember wat i wana write..
finally, Jaden has finished holding his 1st month showers on 21/12/08, which was also dong zhi.

He received many gifts n ang baos from our friends n relatives. there were hiccups of course.. the caterer we engaged was rather disappointing. the food they served us were definitely not enough, resulted my bro n my FIL gonna go out n buy more food back.
Went for my last wedding dinner in 2008, which was my cousin Xiande's wedding. It was held at HIPV.. very nice ballroom man!! the food was great!! happy for my cousin n his wife Jessie!
Jaden went for his Hep B 2nd dose n checkup already. So far so good lah.. n he also has gotten his passport on 29th Dec.. hubby went off early to SIR Building tat day to retrieve it on Jaden's behalf...

30th Dec, was the sch's AGM meeting, n of course the distribution of timetable for 2009. N of course, dun have my share lah.. i gotta ask my RO as in which session i need to report when i am back in March. Actually slightly regretted using up all my 4 months of maternity leave.. but i'm also sure boss won't like it if i were to separate the last 8 weeks of leave..

My secretary Gladys is in her 5th month of pregnancy. i was very happy for her.. Jaden has a younger bro to play with soon.. i gotta start knowing how to go TMC, as she will b delivering there.. looking forward to see Delroy's arrival, dunno if he will look like mama or daddy.. after her son is born, soon all 3 brothers can always play together!!! by then, it'll b our turn to look forward to Jasline's!

My whole preg process was considered ok.. total weight gained was 19.5kg.. scary hoh,ppl said it was bcoz i was too thin b4 i got preg, so the weight gained was actually ok.. never shot above 50kg in my entire 26 years of life til this preg.. shot up to 62.5kg.. n when i weighed myself at the end of my confinement, i managed to shake off 11.5kg. still have some kilos to shed off as i dun wish to b at the 50kg area.. wana go back to 40+.. colleagues said i slimmed down very fast, but i think there's still room for improvement.. hahaa.. lots of ppl also commented that my delivery time was fast, YES, i admit.. so did hubby.. it took slightly less than 7 hours for me to deliver Jaden..

all i blif was, we must keep exercising by walking.. KEEP WALKING.. i even went shopping n buy things, carried them myself all the way home when i was in my last trimester.. i can still drive to sch then.. coz i told myself i must keep exercising my body by walking.. if not, the delivery process will b very tough.. can't ask me to sit down n do nothing all day...
in my last trimester, i still do my laundry, sweep n mop the floor loh.. i dun blif in last minute thingy.. coz b4 i buy anything for Jaden, i will always go recee 1st then decide.. if there's anything i left out after i gave birth, then will ask hubby to buy..

there's quite a number of times when i was very upset n unhappy about some things tat got to do with Jaden.. it's not tat i'm calculative, i just want the best for my son.. but some ppl just dun understand.. i have to admit tat taking care of a bb/child is very tiring, tats y i'm having 2nd thoughts if to consider for a 2nd child to keep Jaden company.. we dun have enough sleep, so did my MIL.. i dun wish my MIL to tire herself.. see her so tired just by taking care of Jaden alone leh.. a baby can drain us of our energy.. can drive someone crazy leh.. now i understand y some women will get post-natal blues.. it can b very frustrating..

did have the thinking of staying at home to look after Jaden, but a pity i'm still under bond.. which ends in 2010.. but of course, even if no bond is pestering me, i oso can't stop working, coz i dun wish to add financial burden for hubby.. living expenses high here, n raising a baby is super exp, i cannot take the risk.. unless we r millionaire lah, then it's a diff matter.. but fact is, we are not.. tats y approached my MIL to help us take care, n she also agreed.. just bcoz i need to work n can't take care of Jaden, i want my MIL to take care of him on our behalf, n i need her full 100% concentration in taking care of him.. as i want Jaden to b fully taken care of without neglence when both hubby n I need to work.. wif my contribution of monetary to the family, hubby won't b too stressed up mah..

have to keep grumbling tat living in s'pore is really shiong leh.. think think think, think until headache ah.. but i still blif, by the end of the day, we can all endure n go through it..