Registry of Marriage

dun b mistaken.... i'm not going to this place yet.... not so early ya...
just wana express some of my views abt this issue........ well, i just got to know something... which some ppl do not wish me to know.....
My NIE classmate went to ROM..... date... i duno.... coz they meant to keep it from me..... well, i was rather pissed off..... is there really a need 2 do that?? r they really that ashamed that they dun dare 2 announce this news??? seems like they r guilty.... i assume.... well, still assume that we are good friends..... n y treat me like that......
pls dun give such excuse that 'duno how 2 tell me'...... it's invalid already.... since decided to be 2gether in the 1st place, y bother 2 worry about how 2 break the news to the ppl around us...... that only proves 1 thing: GUILTY or ASHAME...... who feels that way?? i duno... mayb 1 of them?? or both felt the same way....
if 2day i'm the 1 going for ROM, i'm sure to tell my friends to share the joyful occasion.... dun tell me 1 day when u hold your wedding dinner, u oso duno how 2 tell me???
there was once when 1 of my good friend asked me, if they invite me to their wedding dinner, would i attend?? i answered without thinking: yes of course.... my good friend getting married, y should i not attend?? i treat her as my good friend, when she finds her happiness, of ocurse i'm happy 4 her..... but ever since they got 2gether, did she treat me s a good friend animore?? but i can say, i still treat her s my good friend....
i wish her happiness but it doesn't mean i regard this man s my friend too...... i'm wishing my good friend happiness.... this particular guy, i won't bother at all coz he doesn't worth it... i'm glad that i made the right choice by not marrying him in the 1st place.....
well, seems like they had done a lot of guilty things.... thats y they behave this way isit??? seems like i duno abt the more guilty stuff they had done.... n i think i'm not interested...... coz wat i feel like doing now is 2 'award' the groom with a big tight slap....... pls dun make this joyous event as a dark n shameful event... dun make it a difficult position for my good friend..... u can announce to each party's family... but y not our NIE group??? 1 thing to say again, GUILTY

The chronicles of Narnia

well, friday 23rd dec i went to watch this movie with my bf, allan n elmus.... this 140 movie, i can say i'm quite happy with the show.... although some parts i can't agree on....

my cousin watched it b4 me... she told me it's not up to her expectations.... mayb due to higher xpects from the movie..... but after i watched it, i found it not bad leh.... especially i like the eldest brother Peter.... he is really charming isn't he??

there was 1 part where i felt very sad...... it's the part when the Lion was being tied up n hair being shaved off..... a lion's respect is bcoz of their big n fluffy hair..... when it's being shaved off, can u see the sad eyes in it?? i tot it really died... but in the end it revived!!! something to be happy of....

it is indeed a nice show..... rating should be ard 8 out of 10....... the war is interesting....... touching too.... but sadly to say, the Queen died a bit 2 soon right?? i was hoping she can have a tough fight with the lion b4 she was being bitten to death. mayb the director wants 2 end the show faster... haha.... for those ppl who had not watched this movie... do spend some time n $$ to watch ok??? i'm sure it's not like some boring movie which doesn't even worth to spend some money on pirated VCD...... hehe..... hope u ppl enjoy this movie....

BLOG idiot

it's been quite some while ever since i wrote in the blog.... If those ppl who often visit my blog should start to realise that, how come my blog seemed to be neater??
Well, it's not my piece of work.... it was from the help of my friend Leonard.... He helped me 2 edit the watever settings of my blog..... looks neater, isn't it?? I'm quite a PC idiot loh..... not very good in IT... n yet i'm in the IT department as my co-core in school. Normal things should still b fine... but tougher ones, sorry man.... dun ask me... not that i'm being selfish by not sharing of wat i know... but wat i know is really limited n little.... n the most basic.....
Seemed to b rather stupid right?? well.......... i dun have so much sort of energy to experiment the diff styles of creating an interesting blog..... all i want is simple....... just as how i think..... how i wish life can be simple.... as simple as possible....but every1 knows, it's not..... very sad right??? the world is always so grey...... darkness..... no bright weather,no rainbow...

KBOX 8-12-05

Yesterday, i went CCK Kbox with my colleagues..... there were 6 of us.... including me, tingting, weilee, kristene, huihui, xinyi.
we went for the Klunch. each of us only paid around $8... quite worth it though.....
It's been quite a long time ever since i went KTV and had a good time singing.... next week might go again... hehe....
We had had quite a hard time..... bcoz the whole school down for the school opening... it was really tiring.... we finally got time to rest after 3rd dec.... really.....
Singing has always been my favourite pastime.... Singing good is 1 thing... haha..... need you ppl to judge.... but i myself think that i'm quite a good singer loh... but long time din train myself liao...
i'm a KTV craze.... so from the past few years til now, i've collected many KTV VCDs n DVDs.... n train myself at home.. i dun like going to sing, but spoiling the song... like ppl they anihow sing n nake a fool of themselves.... i felt disgusted..
for ppl who needs 2 borrow karaoke disc from me, can ask me... but depends whether i wana lend or not lah.... hehe...........

LOVE

Just now went to Mos Burger JP with my bf... we were having lunch there. But guess wat we encountered there? Let me tell u more....
Well, actually we were thinking that since we had not been patronising Mos for quite some time, then y not eat there? So when we were there, there wasn't a lot of ppl inside... mayb due to the timing.. we reached there at around 11.30am. Inside a corner of the fast food restaurant sat a young couple. i think they should b ard the age of 16 or 17.
people were having lunch, or even chatting. but this couple was not. they were giving me n my bf a free show 2 watch. i think it's bcoz young ppl, or so-wat called teenagers r looking for excitement or wat lah... which i dun really care. Yes, they were having lunch too... but more..
They were having french kiss. But bcoz they were sitting at 1 corner, so besides them, only me n my bf can see this show. my bf was sitting back-faced them. so when i saw this show, i immediately reported to him. my bf turned around n look. but they stopped a while, n it pissed my bf, coz he din really c much. then after a while, they were doing it again. then my bf got irritated n changed seats,he sat beside me and look at them directly.. i was so amused that i kept laughing. my bf was looking at the gal straight into her eyes as she was facing us... she immediately stopped and i think she notified her bf, and they quickly packed up their stuff n left Mos.
Me n my bf were discussing this issue. He said that since they dared to do such thing in public, then he would dare 2 see.. he said that the gal was embarassed. i told him, since they dared 2 kiss until like that, y b scared that ppl might see?? We even joked that, y dun they just make it more exciting by carressing each other?? since so thick-skinned liao y not just go to the extreme??? we even agreed that if the guy dared to comfront us, we would scold them.... haha...... then when they were walking pass us, they did not dare to look at us, then i just passed a msg from my mouth, saying that " if u wana get intimate, just go home n do it". Am i right to say that?? isit bcoz u can't do it at home thats y u r doing it outside???
All i can say is they wana do, but get embarassed.... for wat?? as i said, if u dare 2 do, y scared that ppl might see?? if u want excitement, do it in front of others lah... y hide in a corner.....
U might say that the words i said are critical.... but thats me...... i dun like to beat around the bushes.... just b frank...... me n my bf were saying that, since u wana do such things in public, might s well take off your clothes loh... like that more exciting mah.... i told my bf, luckily i din bring camera along, otherwise i'll just walk over n take photo of them n publish here loh.... dun think i dun dare...... stupid teens..... somemore ah... the guy's outlooks can't make it loh...... sucks.....

harry potter movie

i went to watch harry potter on 27/11 with my bf at JP.... it was quite a good movie, although i think it's not as good as the previous 2 parts.... but overall, it's a good movie.... i was a fan of harry potter n lord of the rings.....
that day was oso our anniversary... after watching the movie at ard 5+, we went to delifrance for early dinner.... while we were waiting 4 our food, he said he needed to go n buy something, and left me alone in the cafe....
i started wondering where he went..... but a thought came into my mind that he might go n buy a flower 4 me... but i can't b sure.. but who koes?? i think i really know him far 2 well..... i was right...
he bought blue rose 4 me... the pic that i uploaded here... to b frank, i was elated although it was not really a surprise.... he is not a romantic person, neither was he a caring n considerate man. but when it's an important occasion, he would buy me my fav rose... not just a rose but a blue rose.. all bcoz, i like blue... those ppl who koe me rather well should know...
can't expect too much from him coz he's really diff from my previous bfs.... oso duno how 2 elaborate.... well....
the next movie which i'm very interested in is the chicken little... haha... wat a cute cartoon movie!! i plan to bring my cousin Arena to watch that... it's been ages ever since i brought her out..... i blif many ppl will go n watch that movie ya?? =)

42nd Golden Horse Awards Ceremony

Yesterday was the big event for Chinese movies, the 42nd Golden Horse Ceremony, held in Taiwan.

Although i didn't watch the whole show, but some interesting n exciting awards, i did not miss it. The hosts did an intro of whoever reaches the carpet... A lot of stars dressed so smartly n beautifully... The 1 who caught my special attention was Takeshi... He's still so charming n handsome.. N Ren Dahua... A very manly middle-aged man....
the 2nd last award was announced to be the best male actor.. Actually in my mind, i was hoping either Aaron Kwok or Liang Jiahui to get, but as i expected, Aaron won it! I was very happy, not just bcoz i like him, but also his performance in the movie 3 cha kou. I did watch the movie n i think that Aaron acted very well in the show... getting the award is a recognition of his effort in the movie industry.
He had changed a lot.. from a childish young man bcoming a mature man... From a singer who has a strong dancing background to a successful actor who won the Golden Horse Award. Winning this award is a very big encouragement, really. It's not that easy. It's not that if u have $$, u can win the trophy. I really supported Aaron, and as he said on the stage yesterday, he would work harder, n i would continue to support him. Hope he can release some fantastic work asap.. i'll be waiting... =)

friend's gathering

just now i went to JP n have a chat wif my best friend Kelly, and 1 good friend of mine, Joreen.... Wow... long time din c her liao... really....
We had a great chat at coffee bean! We stayed n talkde abt 3 hours..... We r all from CSS.... used to be very close n go out often to play bowling.... but ever since we graduated, we seldom meet up... so when i was supposed to meet Kelly, she told me that Joreen will be joining us too... I was elated of course.... coz the feeling was just like b4, we chatted n gossiped! How i wish we can turn the clock back to our secondary school days! I really missed it so much.... A pity, time passed n we can't get it back again.....
Well, i had always treasured friendship a lot.... N it was really a pleasant gathering.... though it's just the 3 of us... but when u have good friends to talk to, the quantity isn't important at all... We r all pursuing our own career out there, but sometimes do get out n chat as a group is always a happy occasion..... i dun wish 2 lose any friendship..... coz friends are very important in our life.....

Very happy for my pal, Serene

Y is my nick like this?? Bcoz yest when i was at queensway wif my bf n his frds, i received a msg from 1 of my best friend in Ngee Ann, Serene, that she'll be getting married next month!
I'm so happy for her. She n her bf, Desmond, had been 2gether for many many years, n now finally she's getting married.
When i was in Ngee Ann, i had many good friends, and Serene was 1 of them. We were in good terms, who will talk over the phone sometimes. But now very seldom already. We are all busy of course.
Seeing friends around me finding their happiness, or had found their happiness, i felt so blessed n elated. Although receiving 'red bomb' may result us in burning our $$ pocket, but i think it should b worth it.
Serene has settled down and will be moving into their new house soon. N it's near my place!! we can meet up often next time!!! How i envy! Women look best in their wedding gown. When will my turn come?? Well, not so soon... so dun expect any red bomb from me yet ya!!!

Dad went back to taiwan again.......

just now we sent my dad to the airport again.... well, i think we will bcome the regulars there soon....this time, we set off as a whole family......
Previously was bcoz of his work permit n work stuff, thats y he needs 2 come back 1st..... now he has 2 return to work..... but he'll b unsure whether he can come back 2 celebrate New Year wif us.....
Life has returned back to normal n quietness.... no mahjong sessions in my house again, until dad comes back. This week is a week wif PH, so 2mrw need to go back 2 report 4 work... then thurs PH again, n fri work... n sat n sun, the weekends which i'm always looking 4ward to.....
I blif my dog will feel lonely again wifout my dad.....

my dad is coming back!!!!

well, after sending my dad off last month, now he's coming back!! this sat noon he'll b back in s'pore for a few days n he'll go back to taiwan again...
next tues is my mum's bday... wondering if my dad can make it to have dinner wif us that day...
so fast, time flies... he's been there for ard 1 month already... he has been calling home as well lah... didn't c him for quite some time.. do miss him though....
2mrw is my last working day for PSLE marking... hope 2mrw pass asap.. can't stand the working life there... i would rather go back pei hwa n do my stuff... making my dark rings so obvious... sad man... well, 2mrw will be over soon, right?? =)

My Dog

My dog, Coco, has been with us for 3 years.... n now he is 3 years too...
Still remembered when he was still young... When we saw him, he was only 2 months old.. sitting in the cage in a pet shop...
All the puppies were playing 2gether happily... just him alone, sitting in 1 corner, not wanting to play with them... he is the quietest among all. My sis saw him n said she wanted to get this puppy. At that time, i was in love with another Shih Tzu. But my sis insisted wanting him.
The person-in-charge brought Coco out n allowed my sis to carry him. He was so tiny n cute, resting well in my sis' arms. My sis decided to get him. we had a hard time persuading my mum, as she has always hated pets. we tried all ways to convince her that how cute Coco was. N finally, after pending 4 so many years, we were allowed to buy him. I remembered clearly we paid $960.
When he was in our house, he can't walk properly. Kept falling down, he was just so cute... All of us loved him a lot. We trained him to pee n poo in the toilet. Locked him in the kitchen to sleep at night, can't go other places except kitchen n balcony. Only in the day, he's allowed to walk around in the house, but strictly not our rooms. We wanted him to b trained at home, so as to when he's older, he won't pee n poo around as he likes.
N so now, he relly won't. Although the beginning stage was hard. Kept scolding n punishing him. Luckily, he is a sensible puppy, even until now. although he's rather naughty at times.
Many ppl who r close 2 me will know that my dog is VERY impt to me. Even if i have no $ to eat, my dog oso has 2 eat. I love him very much. so whenever i started to think that 1 day he'll leave us, i feel so sad. Bcoz he is really adorable n obedient. When we came home, he'll stand near the door n welcome us, kept wagging his tail. i can't imagine many years later, there's no dog doing such things 2 us again. Buying a new dog won't settle the bill. He's just diff from the rest. I can't train the rest like the way i trained him. The rest can't behave the same way as he is. There r just so much nice abt my puppy that i can't finish writing in the blog. I wana share wif ppl who read this blog. mayb i should separate all these info about Coco in 2 or 3 blog articles. Coz there's always new things 2 talk abt him, old things to remember abt him.

what do i want?

i was chatting wif my frd on msn.... talked abt some issues of the past... i can't b too specific in talking abt this in my blog....

What do i really want in my life? there r simply too many things which i can't let go.... even if it had been many years... what's wrong wif me?? I duno whether isit bcoz i'm undergoing too much stress or what, that resulted me to imagine more things..... i always get headache nowadays... mayb i really think too much...

Ppl always c me s a cheerful n happy-go-lucky gal... ya indeed i am... but that was b4.... the present me isn't like that animore... mayb bcoz i stepped into the working society already.... have to face a lot of reality, that changed me....

Well,i always assumed myself as a gal who can handle everything well.... but now mayb i can't say that so confidently... some of the things that happened on me, are things that i can't handle.... now i can't,i blif i can't handle such matter in the future s well... some things just can't get it out of my mind... i duno how 2 handle...

it's always driving me crazy..... made me think so much that resulted headache.... ppl might say,then dun think lah! but tell u ah... some things aren't just that u say u dun wana think then u can just 4get abt it.... it's not possible...

i oso duno how to describe.... dun wish 2 discuss this up here.... just wana find a place to relieve my stress thats all... well, this prom is not settled.... thats y it never gets out of my mind.... there's no way 4 me to settle it.... so pessimistic right?? well, that's the present me... no longer optimistic like b4... i'm no longer the cheerful me.... thats y ppl around me can always find me in a daze out of no reason.... well.... what's really wrong??

There's a movie named Dark Water, but what i have now is Dark Rings

i think i'm worn out recently. y do i say that?? just c my title n u'll know. i oso duno y.... my dark rings are getting obvious these few days.... am i imagining things or having illusions??? but nobody mentioned to me abt my dark rings....

those ppl who know me very well, will koe that i'm a gal who loves to look pretty... although i'm not...... haha..... when i was in NIE, i couldn't sit tight in LT or tutorial room.... then where will i go?? of course toilet lah!!!! but y of all places, toilet?? bcoz i wana go there n see mirror mah... thats y always get scolded by my friends... haha......

well, i hope my dark rings can disappear asap... i wana look prettier, tats all!!

Dad leaving us on 30-9-05 ..... sob

Today is the 2nd day when dad isn't around wif us....... he left us on 30-9-05.... to taiwan for work.... he quit his previous job a few days ago.. coz he found a more prospectous job here.... but condition is,he has to leave us for some years to fight his career there...
he discussed this issue with my mum... n they decided to try it out.... the flight is confirmed to be on 30th....
30th is the celebration of children's day... it's a half day,not a teaching day... so on tues,i applied leave from my boss, so that i can send my dad off to the airport.... something sad was, my sis was unable to come wif us bcoz she's on morn shift... so, my mum, bro n me went wif him... my eldest uncle, a taxi driver, came to give us a ride to the airport... we set off at 11am.... but ard 8+..... we woke up n had breakfast 2gether.....
bcoz of contract prom,dad has to come back to s'pore 1st on 30th oct.... after that,he'll leave again..... but just now when we were having breakfast wif mum, mum said that dad called her yest.... tat taiwan had tycoon.... they had 2 stop work 4 the moment.... so he called to inform my mum abt the weather over there....
well, although my dad has always been very noisy..... but when he isn't around, it seemed rather sad n bored.... esp my dog.... he seemed to wonder how come he din get to see my dad... mayb it's bcoz of blood is thicker than water, thats y no matter how he treated me in the past, i will still b filial to him... but these few years, he has been treating me well....
well, this is life..... if we dun strive when we are still able to work, we won't get the 2nd chance... so youth n time doesn't come back to us..... i oso hope i have the determination of earning more $$.... but i'm just the type of gal who is very satisfied wif current lifestyle....... oh no.......

Celebration of dad's bday in advance 28/9/05

after work,we went to a seafood place near queenstown, to celebrate my dad's bday in advance..
he confirmed his work to taiwan a few days ago.... his bday is on 8th Oct... he tried to ask if he can go after his bday, but was rejected... he has to leave on this friday... so we decided to celebrate early for him... he has always loved to eat seafood... so my sis' colleague recommended that particular place.... it's near the roadside....
felt quite sad that suddenly he is leaving us for work.... this fri will be children's day celebration.. so no teaching that day, but a concert.... my dad needs to reach the airport b4 12pm... so just now i went to ask my principal to check if i can take leave.. so that i can go n send my dad off... luckily me boss is very understanding n she agreed....
hope he can take good care of himself in taiwan... mum bought him a thick jacket n gloves for him 2 wear..... this is ever the 1st time since i got matured,that my dad is leaving us for so long..... he may go for some years... but bcos of some contract stuff, he has to come back after 2 months 1st... after getting the documents done, he'll fly back again... so duno whether he will celebrate new year wif us or not... but something to b sure, he won't b around when we celebrate my grandma's, sis', mum's bday next month... which is quite a pity.... well, this is life... he hopes to pia a few more years so that he can enjoy life... though he's 47 this year.... cos this side,the boss offer him a much more salary.... so after discussing with my mum,they agreed to pia.....
although he may not go for that long, but it's at least 1 year... sometimes he gets noisy.... but will not get too used if he's not around with us... will kindda miss him in a way.. my dog sure miss him a lot... he'll start wonder how come his favourite member,my dad is not at home with him?

Poem Recitation 2005

2day was the competition for P2 poem recitation.... as i was teaching 2 classes of P2, so i have 2 choose diff poems n practise wif them.... We have 8 classes of P2.... but there were only 3 prizes to b given out. i was the MC for this competition....
Among my Lo 2 n Hu 2, Lo 2 managed to get a 3rd prize of $10 NTUC voucher.... Hu 2 lost... so they were rather disappointed....
My Lo 2 presented wif er-ge, named Ying Huo Chong (firefly). but they spoke rather soft so i tot they might lose... but to my surprise, at least they got a 3rd position....
i had a tough week... coz besides my work n duties... i still need 2 fork out time 2 meet these 2 classes n carry out practises... nearly cost me my life... so tiring... SA 2 is coming... but my class seem to get a bit crazy.... can't get them to concentrate... seems like i've spoilt them.... so worry... wat can i do?? goodness..... being a teacher is really not easy.... felt so breathless.... haiz

What is marriage?

i watched CH49.... tao se dan bai zhi... hosted by Tao Jingying n Hou Peicen.... special guest is EMI Li Mingyi... talked about her failed marriage... n this topic "marriage" ran thru my mind... what is marriage?
A very good frd of mine got ROM a few months ago... n i was happy to hear that she is very happy with her fiance... But another bad news was, another frd of mine, had just broken off wif her long-time bf recently... They had been 2gether for SO MANY years... so when they broke off, my feelings were rather strong...
It made me wonder, what actually is love, what actually is marriage? Being 2gether for long doesn't mean will end up being 2gether as married couple... so i was rather pessimistic towards marriage... so i think it's not secure at all....
Like my students, in LO2, 1 of the boy came from a broken family too... it affected his behaviour in class.. which caused quite a lot of prom for me... in the class which i taught music, JO2, has another similar prom...
actually when a marriage fails, the most affected is the child.... y must end up like that? it's very hurtful... esp the children... y must let them suffer such separation?? back to the prom, it's the adult's fault, i can say...
I had always fantasized marriage... but after seeing so many cases like these,it really scared me.. i do not dare 2 think so much abt it animore... nothing is forever of course... but it's how we handle and cherish... i open my mind much more to accept n absorb diff aspects of life n decision... i decided to leave everything to Fate.... Fate will decide for me, who is my final prince charming... til now, i still don't know this outcome.. i'll see this matter wif an open heart... n i'm still waiting for the final day to come, and i'm still fantasizing.... i'm waiting for the day when i can say ' i do' to the man i love, and wearing the beautiful wedding gown.... waiting.........

brother went training in thailand 10th sept 2005

My 1 n only bro was sent to thailand for 2 weeks training.... so yest, me,my mum n my 5th uncle went to send him off.... we went by my uncle's van....
my mum was rather worried as this is the 1st time ever since my bro went on a plane... but i told her not to worry so much as my bro is already a big boy.... we 3 siblings r independent individuals, so i think such trip shouldn't b a prom.... it's nothing serious aniway....
my bro has always not wanted to go, but no choice.... well, this is life, isn't it? consider it as an experience.... he might be able to gain new knowledge there.... but of course, i do hope he is fine there....
Although my bro is the youngest among the 3 of us, but he has been very independent. Mayb due to the upbringing we have in this family.... he can take good care of himself.... this i can be sure... He still can't confirm the exact date to come back, so when he gets to know, he'll call us..... Hope everything goes on well for him in this coming 2 weeks..... May God Bless my Bro.....

Makeover??

It's been 3 years ever i went for my last and ever 1st makeover..... i did receive several vouchers from red earth( esprit comestics)..... i am a member of esprit and supporter of their products.....
Inside this pack of vouchers, there is a makeover session.... but i was pondering whether to go for it or not.... I do wish to go for a new one, but i duno whether i should waste such money on it or not.....
Of course makeover does look nice, so our youth is losing as days passed.... we can't get youth back, but money does.... y does such minor matter also trouble me?? i tend to be over worrying about all stuff around me.... ppl might say,if u want to go then just go ahead with it,y think so much?? just enjoy what u have now or else u'll regret! i do think this way too.... but i think we have to be rational..... have to think 1st b4 we take action.... we are adults..... we have stress..... we have burdens..... so it's always better to think 1st..... isn't it??
Well, let me think it over whether to go for it... actually i don't have much time to think about that bcoz these days, i'm just too packed with work.... haiz...... another trouble...... it sucks..... making my head bloat.... i think it's time i need an inflater to cure this illness.......

Terrible Holiday

It seems to be a week holiday right?? many ppl might think that teachers enjoy such privilege too, but let me tell u,u r wrong!!! esp for me..... who said that we are enjoying 5-day week work?? for this holiday,even my sat is burnt!!
If inclusive of sat,i can tell u this terrible holiday of mine!!! 5 days r burnt for me!!! where is justice??
I felt so demoralising..... I still have 4.5 years to go u know?? But it seems very long..... indeed it's very long.... I have lots of shit work to do!!! it's making me so sad n angry...
I always get headaches.... i think bcoz of all these shit..... I felt that my heart is weakening day by day.... Felt so weak....
Many ppl may think that i'm being well supported in pei hwa, but it's not.... Some1 is currying favour so much that i have no position to stand at all.... I'm the kind of person who dun curry favour.... so if u r waiting 4 me to curry favour u, sorry!!!
But indeed in any aspects of life,we'll bound to meet ppl like that... I'm the kind of person who talks frankly.... If u think u wana destroy me,emmm i think u have to make more effort....
what is this world coming to?? Expect teachers to be all-rounders?? hey,we aren't superman!! It's very stressful u koe?? Teacher, this occupation may sound nice, but the kind of bitterness, u can't experience.... Mayb other colleagues may not have such life like i do, n they may be enjoying their holidays so happily.... oh... unfair world.....
I hate my current lifestyle!!

Driving Test

Yesterday was a happy day for me....... Haha..... bcoz i went for my driving test....... Guess if i passed or failed?? Of course i finally managed to make it through!
I was so nervous that day as it was raining..... I was afraid that i might flunk again this time.... but when it's time 4 my test,the rain stopped.... but the ground is still wet.....
When it was time 4 us to enter the test room to wait 4 balloting, i was praying not to get CCK/ Teck Whye Road.... but there i was, kana the road....... i was so worried bcoz i wasn't confident of that....
No choice, i still went on..... The circuit part was ok........ the tester didn't say anithing..... actually i was grateful to him... he gave definite instructions..... b4 we went out to road, he said i was very ok in circuit..... n i was quite happy that circuit part i've passed.... just hope that road part dun flunk me...
N we went on to CCK n Tack Whye Road.... Turn here n there..... no much happenings.... So we were going back 2 BBDC...... When i was about to drive into BBDC, i was so blur that i almost went in the wrong route.... i was going into the road of the temple..... haha.... but he reminded me that the next one is the road to BBDC....
After we drove in, i have to shut off my engine n proceed to the test room wif him.... B4 we got off the car, he said i'm ok... everything is going on well n smooth.... so at this juncture, i'm pretty sure i've passed! So happily, i went into the room with him. He only commented that actually i can drive a bit more faster. Just this sentence, he took out the test sheet and said "Ok, i passed you." i was so elated n kept thanking him..
He even asked me if i can donate some $$ for a certain organization... i oso duno.... was too happy that i agreed to donate for him!! after all,he passed me right?
Guess how many points i was deducted? For those who had gone thru driving test should koe, we can't accumulate more than 20 points, otherwise we can't get our license... so we have to get as less points as we can..... I only got 4 points!!! i was so happy... but i think bcoz this tester is lenient and part of it is bcoz i lucky... i was grateful that i finally got it!!! Really!!

P6 Oral Examination

2day went for my duty as a time-keeper for P6 Oral exams.... Nearly late! It ended around 11.40am.... but official knock off time for 2day is 12.30pm...so rot a while in the staff room.... I'm really feeling tired.... Just now during my duty, i nearly fell asleep, but luckily i did not.....
It's been a long time ever since i went to oral exams.... the last time was around 2 years ago when i took my AO Chinese...
Had always hated Oral Exams.... did not know how 2 score marks at this section. But luckily my written paper is better, so getting a A isn't a prom....
Envy the kids now... they r so fortunate.... Whatever they do, they are being taken care of... just like a pot of flower being protected.. unlike us, in the past, whatever we do, we are on our own.. But what i dun like is, kids now r all so spoilt.... i cannot tolerate my students to behave like this in class. I will scold them... even those whose parents are teachers in pei hwa too.... i just think that we should b impartial. Otherwise, the kids will be rebellious n defiant... Must start teaching them since young, otherwise when they reach upper pri, it'll b disastrous...
2mrw has to wake up at 5am again.... my dark rings are rather obvious... so ugly!!! well, this is called Life.

Early Bird

I'm teaching in PM session, but here i am, waking up so early in the morn... not just 2day, but 2mrw as well.....
2day is the P6 oral examination...... I have to perform duty as a time keeper..... Dun ever assume that being a teacher is that easy when it's actually not.... I'm very tired....... My eyes just do not wish to open at this moment of time... hope i dun fall asleep during the examination time....
It's said that the session for today will end at around 12........ But do not koe what time we can leave... hope can leave straight after that..... i need a nap...... really.....
Got to get ready n set off already......... Go Go Go!

The Maid Movie

I went for the movie, The Maid, yesterday.... wow, i can say this movie is not bad! i had always feared to watch horror movie, but the being stubborn and curious, i still went ahead to watch it with a guy friend of mine. the movie storyline is rather ok, and there were a few scenes that scared me... For local movies, esp horror movie, this is considered above average... if u are interested in watching horror movie, or wish to know a bit more abt chinese traditions, this show is recommended..... i'm not saying that this show is really that good, but as i said earlier on, for local standard, this is rather good...

National Day!

here i am.... writing my 1st blog posting on National Day! 1st,do allow me 2 say happy birthday to S'pore... after that,i shall start sharing my daily stuff with friends who visit my blog...
during teaching life, it is really an exhausting job.. i was so afraid that my health couldn't cope as i have always been rather weak. was planning to study in SIM for my degree, but as i think it over, i'm scared i can't make it through for 4 years.
I'm teaching in noon session, so if i were to pursue my degree, it means after my work,i have to go study. it oso implies that my sleeping hours will be lesser than now which i'm having... that's rather scary..
I tot that teaching life is enjoyable, but now i dun agree. it's not that my boss is not good. the environment is indeed positive, but some of the colleagues aren't that good as i tot them to be.
i actually tot that my life should be very sweet, and though it's not that bitter now. i had always wished to get married early, but the situation doesn't allow me to... I do not dare to think of this animore.. i just leave it to Fate, God will arrange it for me. Life is just like that. We dun get what we want in our life.. what i really wish to have in my whole life is completely impossible. I lost it once and it's for all... this is what i'm so regretful of... i oso duno how to say.. it's just so sad and demoralising..