Friday Dinner

was on childcare leave, as pil went back to Kedah for qingming, will b back on Mon morn... was with hubby n Jaden at home...

Later part of the noon, mum smsed me to ask if wana have dinner together, n of course we can!! Jaden woke up at around 6.15pm, i went to make milk for him.. after drinking, we changed him n packed his bag, ready to go JP meet my bro n his gf...

Mum was at our place at ard 6.15pm.. so she waited for her grandson to b ready, then we set off.. went to Dian Xiao Er for dinner.. ordered a set meal for 5 pax.. n we couldn't finish the food.. haha..

By the time we were abt to leave JP, it was 8pm... Jaden has been awake for nearly 2 whole hours.. he was making noise, telling us he was tired... i drove them back home.. mum was carrying Jaden.. giving him his pacifier n his smelly pillow... after dropping them at the bus stop, hubby took over n carry Jaden, n there we went very fast, back home..

It has been a long time ever i met up with my bro to eat liao... n Jaden has been seeing his maternal grandma for 2 days already.. yesterday n today.. mum was happy to see Jaden of course...

I hope we will always have time n chance to go eat together... i love my family!!

Exploding soon....

had a long chat with hubby on the phone just now... not a very pleasant chat though... think i'm going to b sick soon...

many things changed our lives recently... the arrival of Jaden is a very enjoyable gift for us.. everything changed ever since Feb, til now, n of course the road ahead of us..

there r so many things which made me so unhappy, n yet hubby wasn't that supportive.. i admit i made him uncomfortable in this position.. i was so sad today that i really dun have the mood to carry out my work today.. my tears just went down naturally...

other elders in our family also knew abt my character n they knew tat this moment i'm very unhappy.. i had tried to think of other alternatives actually.. ya, every1 sees me as the bad person, a super bad witch who tries to make things worse.. isit all bcoz i dunno how to gain sympathy n act ke lian?? just bcoz i'm tougher, tats y i'm the bad guy in the show??

my tears went down today.. but not in front of them.. how i wish i can stay away from work really.. but i cannot.. then wat can i do?? i cannot see my precious as many hours as before.. i miss him so much that i always feel like crying whenever i leave the house, n letting him stay alone at home.. but as i said, wat can i do??

my bomb inside me is ready to explode.. n of course, it will hurt some people.. tat is y til now i didn't activate it.. but i dunno if i will erupt it or not... coz it's already not me, i'm not me.. the original me is i will sure activate the bomb n won't regard the casualties in the tragedy..

ask me to b more understanding n b more forgiving, but please.. do those ppl who agitate me respect me 1st??? if they dun, y should i respect them 1st then?? i'm going to explode soon.. i'm terribly upset n feeling super lousy now.. i just hope no 1 irritates me today, please give me some time to cool down.. please...

Jaden tries brown rice

Jaden turns 4 months old last Sat, n we went to take a family photo at Upper Cross Street..

Sunday, went breakfast with hubby, mil n Jaden.. went to supermarket walk walk, as hubby needed to buy 4D, n i need to restock pampers for Jaden.. as we were walking along the children corner, was looking at other nutritous food, as very soon Jaden will have that in his meals besides his formula mlk now...

MIL saw the brown rice powder, n just right that the powder is for babies 4 months n older.. MIL said wana buy n let Jaden try.. since this can b fed to babies after they turn 4 months old, i agreed to buy n let our precious prince try, to see if he likes it, or his stomach can take it..

Jaden is growing up day by day. the current volume of milk that we gave him is no longer enough, as he turn hungry v soon as 2 hours... besides increasing the volume of his milk by 20ml more, MIL prepared the brown rice powder, mix with the milk n let him drink...

Lucky Jaden quite like it lah.. he didn't vomit out or push away the milk bottle... After 3 feeds that day, nothing went wrong yet.. he was taking it well.. phew.... we will continue to let him eat, as brown rice is actually healthy for them... All we want is, Jaden will b a healthy baby!!

I had a dream

yesterday spent the night at inlaw's house, with Jaden sleeping with us... He must b playing a lot in his dreamland, tats y he woke up ard every 2.5hours, wanting to drink his milk.. but he didn't cry out loud or what lah.. just simply kept moving around, as if he cannot go to sleep coz he is hungry...

ard 5.30am when he wakes up for his next feed, i had a dream...

I dreamt tat hubby n I went to help his cousin Wenxian n Xiaolin with photography.. so put Jaden in a children's playground, which has a big mat... then we proceeded to take photographs.. around 2 hours later, i told hubby we need to go back to the playground to fetch Jaden, n there we went..

To our surprise, we saw Jaden crawling on the mat, which now is too early for him to learn that skill lah... then hubby went to carry him up.. Jaden smiled n mouthed out "papa".. haha, we were shocked n happy...

Oh my, it's too early for that of course... mayb i think too much, as in thinking when he can talk , when he can crawl etc.. tats y the dream came in.. hehe... a wonderful dream to dream of... indeed...

Our Prince Jaden

Jaden is going to b 4months old next week.. time really flies ya... oh my... going back to work VERY VERY soon... sad..

Jaden is now the 'boss', the prince in the family.. he is growing up very fast n is so chubby now.. n of course naughty too!!! he loves to talk, smile at us, likes to b carried n go walk walk outside, n most of all, loves to sleep!!

i kept shopping for his things, no longer mine... when go out, will also go see what i can get for him, or what he is lacking of now.. n of course there r plenty of things not bought as he hasnt reached the age to play all those things yet lah.. so hope to slowly buy... bought diff clothing for him, as he is becoming bigger now, n weather is going to b hotter after next month, so must get cooler clothing for him, as this prince of ours cannot tahan hot..

sometimes by looking at his look, or see the way he smiles, i told hubby, he will sure b v mischievious n playful.. boys r of course more playful, but i want to teach him to b teachable.. which means when we say no, he has to stop, or dun let me repeat more than 3 times, or else he is going to b banned... children need to b taught lah, this is wat i think..

I look forward to spend my days with him n see him grow up.. dun wish to miss any of his growing stage.. but a pity i need to work, otherwise i can face him many many hours everyday.. once missed any part of his growing up, n tats it, no turning back of clock n time.. tats y whenever i see him that very day, i make sure i will snap some pics of him, so tat can see his progress day by day, month by month.. no matter how tired i am, i still love this prince of ours!

Bought new things

i saw my sis having a digital photo frame, so i oso v envy to have one.. but couldn't bear to purchase 1 as they r quite exp...

ard 2 weeks ago, when i went JP with my mum, i saw NTUC Xtra selling electronic items, n saw digital photo frame!! it's $99... much lesser than expected.. not branded of course lah.. so after considering, i bought it.. so happy..

Went to buy a webcam n earpiece, as my sis requested.. coz she said when chatting over MSN, we can chat thru the earphone, n can see each other in web cam... she also wanted to see her nephew Jaden... Quite true oso lah, my sis is away from s'pore, shld get the web cam long ago, but just kept dragging n dragging.. hehe..

After spending on all these, so little $$ left.. really... need to go hair salon to do my hair, as my hair is so dry n messy.. must get it done b4 i report back to work... n would also like to go JP massage, as JP has a new Javanese Massage salon, wanted to try out the services to relax myself... been quite listless these few days, feel tired.. so frustrated as well... need to relax n let myself b relaxed, otherwise will go mad b4 i report back to force...

few more days b4 my official reporting back to sch, so reluctant to go back.. but no choice, gota continue my bond n service to the government!!

Our talkative baby

Jaden is getting cheerful day by day.. not to mention when he cries for food, or in a bad mood lah...

This baby of ours is very talkative.. every1 said he will b just like me.. haha.. he loves people to talk to him n play with him.. though he cannot pronounce any word yet... when we talk to him, play with him, or sing song to him, he will b so happy to kick here n there.. smiling all the way, sometimes will even laugh til sounds coming out from his mouth!!

This morn when hubby n I were talking to Jaden at home, play until he was rather tired n wanted to go back to sleep, so started to cry.. both of us heard clearly he shouting the word 'Ma'.. i always talked to him, asked him to call me MaMa.. n just now he did mouthed Ma, but the 2nd word mayb he still cannot pronounce properly, so became 'Ma Mo', n straight after tat, his crying sounds came..

Both of us were very shocked to hear him mouth 'Ma', n of course happy lah.. haha.. coz babies ard their age now should b able to mouth 'e, ah, hmm, gee'... n of course, Jaden can pronounce all these already.. wonder when he can really say 'mama'... hmmm...

I dun expect Jaden to b very clever or what lah.. coz i think if some1 is too clever, the heaven will b jealous, n something bad will happen to this clever person.. so i just wish Jaden can b a normal living boy, simple boy who is obedient n sensible.. most imptly, he must b some1 hardworking, down to earth, filial, humble.. n not to b someone who is proud n arrogant..

If 1 day he can really mouth out 'mama', i think i will b so happy that i will lose sleep.. but of course, after tat, hope he can faster learn to mouth 'papa'... =)