Sunday at home with Jaden

So fast, it's e end of holidays, i'm starting work tomorrow liao!!! Today, due to some reasons, I decided to bring Jaden home n take care of him in the daytime on my own, til dinner time then bring him back to my in laws' house. coz since PILs won't have the time to entertain my son, so might as well i bring him home, there is my comfort zone, n Jaden also won't disturb them. Luckily my biao ge was nearby with my mum n bro, so they came over to fetch both Jaden n I home.

Reached home b4 12pm, brought Jaden to his playzone n play. Gave him water, after a while some cereal.. he watched his nursery rhymes DVD too, sat at his high chair for the cereal feeding, n also had his water there. I tried letting him drink through his sippy cup, on off he can control his strength to drink water w/o choking, though once or twice he did choke, but he's adapting. He doesn't like straw bottles! he dun wana suck through the straws. If given his milk bottle, that would b the best. But i want him to learn to drink from cup, so today's attempts still ok.

ard 2pm, I let him go take his nap in his yaolan. He started to doze off at ard 2.15pm, and slept til 4.45pm. He was lazing in the yaolan til 5pm then i carried him out.

I tried training him to sit on his picnic mat while watching his DVD. normally he would stand up n walk v v v near to the TV, or walk around. no choice, my living room is v small, so the distance to watch the tv is v near. I talked to him many times, n even sat beside him to acc him watch the DVD. He listened a few times n sat there to watch, so far so good as this is the 1st attempt. occasionally he would wana sit on my lap n watch the DVD, n listen to my singing at the same time.

b4 i gave him his 2nd bath of the day, I fed him cereal again. After which i let him rest a while b4 bathing him. brought him back to my in laws' house at near 8pm. Sometimes i was thinking, if Jaden can b more responsive that'll b great. But i know all these cannot b forced, I'll wait. All i wish for is, my precious 1 n only son can be a normal kid.

I enjoyed my time with him, though he can b v stubborn n naughty at times. Sometimes I'm just so proud of myself. Being a full time working mum, I can handle him solely on my own w/o any help, I'm so proud. for SAHM (stay-at-home mum) is different lah, mummy is bb's main caregiver, while I'm not Jaden's main caregiver. N yet I can actually praise myself for the good job done. I deserve a pat, do I? hahaha... coz mind u, not all full time working mums can do as good as I do loh! hahahaha... (over-praising myself)

1 of the thing that I think I should continue to try is, put Jaden in his car seat. It has not been in use for many donkey months. Today, i carried him and walk a distance, and took a bus. I wish, when i bring him out, is i drive and he in his car seat. Wah, hard to achieve loh, but I did see such scene b4 out there, I hope I can train my son in this area. Hope so lah! =)

Wedding Vows

I feel happy for friends / relatives who r getting married... it's a happy event and 1 of the most impt event in our lives... Marriage... It's established on the foundation of love, love n love.. & the reason of getting married is bcoz of love, love, love too.... if u have other factors in mind b4 going into marriage, then it's not totally loving the person..

Wana get married is bcoz u love this person, n he/she loves u too, wanting to spend every seconds with u, wanting to grow old with this person... regardless if he/she is poor, weak or anything other factors..

Suddenly, dunno y too, I felt like taking out our actual wedding day's DVD n watch... as we held both solemnisation n wedding banquet on the same day, thus it's even more memorable for me.. when hubby went out to buy breakfast for me, I went to the drawer, and started to take out the DVD n played... Wanted to watch our wedding vows again.

Do u still remember your wedding vows b4 u exchanged your wedding band with your partner? I dun really remember lah, to b true..

Although Bong is not those kind of rich / earning a lot person, but at least we dun need to worry about living... Many women thought tat having a rich hubby or a hubby who earns a lot is v impt.. Yes indeed, we cannot do w/o $$$ this is the fact.. but come to think of it, if every woman thinks this way, then i wouldn't b alive by now. It proves that, as long as both stay united and work hard together, nothing can hunt us down. Earn less spend less.. we r living in a simple manner, no branded stuff, no luxurious lifestyle, no highclass events etc... and yet we r happy with our current situation.

Although i have some dissatisfaction towards this husband, this daddy, but when i needed comfort & support most, he is always there. Whenever i cry, he is the calm person who consoled me. He told me b4, when things go wrong, we must b stronger. But i said i can't, i cannot control my tears. He said, just bcoz i collapsed, that's the more he has to be the strong one. He is always the calm side, while I'm always the weak n sobbing one.

No 1 is perfect, but every1 is trying to improve. I told myself I must treasure more, though i can b so stubborn at times. He is forgiving,at least he won't scream/shout at me, he won't hit me, he won't verbal abuse me, though sometimes he get so angry n ignore me..

I'm happy, that in this marriage, I have him, I have my precious Jaden, I have my encouraging family, I have my best friends' blessings. In my life, bsides family, the next i couldn't let go is my friends. When I met mishap, it's my best friends who were beside me showing me support. My family is my support my foundation, my friends were my strength, esp my best friend Kelly. I dunno y God is so kind to me to give me this friend. I'm grateful, very grateful.

Back to wedding vows, after looking through the DVD, though the vows were short & simple, but every wedding vow is sacred n meaningful. The most impt factor i think is Loyalty towards marriage. Love n loyalty in the marriage will keep it burning n burning. I've been taking things for granted. I must keep reminding myself to Treasure.

为了象征我俩对彼此永远忠心、爱情永恒，我仅送你这枚戒指，与你结婚。

2 weeks of excitement and then disappointment

Please do not call or SMS me to ask me what I'm writing about.. it's just my random thoughts... only those who knew will know... I have no place to vent, so i can only put it here...

i was still so excited 2 weeks ago regarding a matter... but now it's disappointment... i know some things cannot b forced, neither can we be so complacent... but i still couldn't believe that such thing can happen on me.. how can i believe it?

It's fate, i know... I've cried more than enough yest, n indeed today, my tears lessened.. In front of others, I've always been so brave n strong, but when bad things happened, u'll see me collapse... after all, i'm not as brave as u thought ya... but today, i'm rather brave... i didn't cry a lot... so much calmer as i expected...

anyway, it's over, it's over.. i know i shouldn't b thinking so much abt it anymore... I'll try to b more forward looking, after all, i still have my family, friends around to support me and encourage me.. i'll be ok, and i know i will..

Back from Genting Trip

Yes, we r back from Genting on Sunday nite...

I can't say that it's a fun trip, neither is a terrible trip...


Jaden's sleep was disturbed when we were setting off to Boon Lay on Fri morn... he was in a foul mood n was v grouchy... Set off from Boon Lay at 7.30am, reached Genting at around 3.40pm..


For the whole of Friday, Jaden was v angry n aggitated... his mood was v v v bad... Had lunch with my in laws, hubby's xiao shu n family, n my 5th uncle n family...


Can't really go to the theme park, as Jaden was not behaving n cooperating.. Somemore i wasn't in my tip top form, so hubby gotta b more active in taking care of Jaden. We had little time to visit the casino.. n of course, partly was bcoz i cannot stand the smell of cigarretes lah...


Saturday, Jaden's mood got better.. but still, he refused to walk... kept screaming n crying to be carried... During this trip, he managed to sleep w/o his yaolan, n his pacifier.. we r going to let him cut the habit of the pacifier.. so far til today, he is still ok...


Sunday, time to go back to Spore.. Agency said the coach will be delayed for 1.5hours!!! we waited and waited, til Jaden fell asleep... finally when we got on the coach, around 1 hour later, Jaden woke up.. n wats the best was, custom there jam... it took us many hours to reach Spore.. Jaden couldn't sit still, so started to make noise n cry... Had a hard time on the way back...


I told hubby, next time still wana ask me to bring Jaden for overseas trip? He said no... b4 tat already warned him abt Jaden's behaviour etc problems... it's them who kept saying, can lah, can handle one lah... ok loh, then i go loh.. now such incidents happened, see next time still dare to ask or not...


I have to admit Jaden is a fussy toddler... tats y b4 going anywhere, i will tell hubby some situations, ask him to consider properly... now, i blif after this trip, his parents won't dare to ask to bring Jaden overseas.. n btw hoh, the 1 who kept saying to bring Jaden along for the trip didn't bring him out n walk walk loh... it's us who kept taking care n getting all the shit work loh.. say wana bring him go Genting walk walk see see, but who is the 1 taking care of him??? No more next time loh.... until Jaden is old enough to talk n listen to instructions...


I thought that it'll b a relaxing trip, but who koes, is more tiring loh.. shld have insisted to stay in Spore with Jaden... at least here is his comfort zone... there r actually some unhappy issues, but i let go, dun wana dwell over it n make a fuss.. or else situations will b ugly.. when i meet up with my close frds, then i tell them what the issues are.. i'm sure if you hear it, u'll b angry too..

Leaving for Genting soon

in just a few more hours' time, we'll be leaving for Genting!!!



It's been a few years ever since I visited Genting loh.. This time round, will be visiting Genting with hubby, Jaden n my in laws.. a coincidence is, my 5th uncle n his family r going too!! tats my 2 adorable cousins, who were my best girls during my wedding....



initially, plan was to spend the night at my in laws' house, n set off to Boon Lay together, but last minute decided to come home n sleep, tmr morn wake up earlier to go over... Jaden is with them now.. my younger bro will b fetching us to Boon Lay..



Though looking forward to the short trip, but i'm not in my top form.. I hope Jaden won't give us a hard time there, as he is rather fussy...



Going to catch some sleep now, as we need to wake up real early... i need to bathe b4 stepping out of the house, so i think will wake up at 5am.. n also last minute check on the bag, hope all things r in... esp Jaden's stuff, cannot have any mistake.. or else, it'll be disastrous.. I dun think I'll spend so much time in the casino this time, so dun dare to dream of winning BIG money hahaaha!!!! win a bit can liao lah, anyway i not greedy...



See u soon in my next post ya! Hope those who r reading my blog will have a great week ahead! btw, i'll be back on Sunday evening!!! See you!