放松了，轻松了

有件事情已经悬挂在心中2个星期，一直没有个完美的句点。这两个星期的我，心里一直觉得不踏实，就像挂在半空中，不上不下的，心里实在难受。

为什么会有这样的心情呢？因为结果一直达不到我的预期。但，今天，5月28日，终于了结了，一切已经有个结论了。

5月13日，第一次。被拒绝的心情当然不好受。虽然气氛还好，没有任何的怨气与愤怒，但有可能因为在心态上已经有个谱，所有当 F 说要给我1个星期冷静冷静，我也不好意思不给她一个台阶，所以就没个结论就出去了。

5月21日，当我觉得这次应该成功时，我又被拒绝了。当时有个第三者，其中一个文员，所以气氛是尴尬的。因为这次我以为，这次肯定成功，我不是你要的人，所以应该会答应了吧，结果又失败了。

5月27日，我又尝试要去找 F，怎知她出去开会了。又白跑一趟。

5月28日，今天。我又去了她的办公室。出乎预料，她并没有给我脸色看。我铁定告诉她我的决定，并要求她成全我。她试着要和我打亲情牌，但我告诉自己，这次不管怎样，都要尝试让她放弃。谈了差不多10分钟，我赢了。气氛并没有僵硬，反而还满愉快的。

当我知道这次终于成功得到我要的结果时，我的心忽然觉得轻了不少，一块大石头终于放下了。我脸上露出了轻松的笑容。天下无不散之宴席，做出这个决定不容易，但我还是做了。我花了几年的时间才终于得到这个结果。

我认为，每一件事情的发生，都有原因的。一切冥冥中好像已经安排好了的。这一切，或者我该说的，该来的始终会来。只要等到时间成熟，配合到天时地利人和，一切就是完美了。至少在我心中，我是这么认为的。这一切的种种，来的时间真是刚刚好。

此时的我，倘若有种被释放的感觉。倘若被解脱了的感觉。自己做出的抉择自己负责。心态上必须做出调整与适应。这是我必须尽快调试过来的心情。我很庆幸，我很感恩，因为我终于做到了。

The boys

Do u meet a dilemma at times?? as in, as a parent, we always hope our children can grow up faster so that we can relax... But when we seriously think about it, how we wish our children can dun grow up tat fast or not.. or rather, they stay as they r right now.. naive, innocent, cute, adorable etc...

I never wanted to admit that Jaden actually turned 4.5yr ol

d yesterday. Oh my... He has been with us for 4.5years! My boy grows up too fast n furious... He is becoming v cheeky these few days, will keep teasing and trying to b funny. Tats a good improvement somehow!

Javier wise, still as stubborn... V unfriendly.... Bad tempered toddler. Well, it all is bcoz of me.. When i was preg with him, my emotions wasn't stable, n was frequently crying or grouchy. End up wat? Javier was a crybaby with bad temper.. My fault...

He is not talking in sentences yet. Considered slow in some areas. But he can recognise many things and when we ask him to do or take certain things, he can follow n do according. Today, i think he improves again. When i wrote his name on e writing board, he saw n then he patted to himself, which means he recognises his name. I didnt read to him at tat moment of time, simply just wrote n showed him... Tat means he can recognise his own name... i was elated of course.

He can say some singular words like: car, bus, ball, flower, bird, circle, square, oval, star, heart, dog, cat, yellow.. can call us papa, mama, gege, ah ma... alphabets can only pronounce A, O, R... recognises some objects or names of things...

They dun communicate much to each other, but like to play basketball together. Jaden is a tamed boy while Javier is more of rough. Jaden somehow is scared of Javier haha!

Soon, Javier will turn 2 years old. Time flies. We r all aging... Seeing them laugh n being happy is such a nice thing on earth. To us, own child/ children is e prettiest creation on earth. Every child is unique, n good in their own ways. I am so happy to have my sons around to make the family complete. A family of 4... Even number so good. Haha... 

Bad viruses

We were occupied by son falling sick one by one...

1st was Javier being sick.. fever for 5 days, n bad running nose cum blocked nose...

Last week was Jaden's turn to have fever.. up n down too.. started on Wed, n til Sun then finally totally gone with fever... but now he is still having cough... is on antibiotics n cough med now.. but at least fever was gone, n he was more energetic since Sunday...

Both my sons lost weight after this viral n stubborn fever... nowadays weather really v bad... resulting people to fall sick.. Fever is worst...

Jaden has been missing sch for last week.. His teacher is v kind to ask about his condition.. He can go back this week for his lessons.. Yeah...

Viruses are v stubborn now.. It's hard to fight them off quickly... We have to b on our guard most of e time to get ready to fight them anitime.

I'm happy that my boys are recovering, though not yet 100% recovered... Hope they can quickly build their immunes up n eat more... they r so skinny now loh... Hopefully these 2 milk lovers can quickly gain back their chubbiness.. I have to b strong too... So far, still fighting well n fit.. Haha... 

Mother's Day 2013

Here's wishing all mothers a Happy Mother's Day!!

Mummies r always great! When child is sick, mum is e only 1 who can lose sleep n skip sleep to take care.. resulting sleepless nights n lack of rest...

Some daddies can also do that, of course... but after all, won't b as sacrificial as mummies! Yipppee!

Hubby brought Jaden to the florist on Friday noon after his school, I went to fetch them, n when I saw them, I didn't notice about e flower until Jaden turned around..I was surprised to see e flower, my blue rose, as usual... Hubby instructed Jaden to pass it to me... *happy*....

Evening, hubby stayed at home to help with e boys, as Javier is still sick.. I met up with my siblings n mum to eat Jack's Place to celebrate Mother's Day... Well, e standard dropped... Hmmm, dunno y too.. but anyway, we had a good dinner there...

Yesterday, went to Pioneer Wharf at JP in e evening for PIL's side... together with hubby's sis n family, n gugu..

Hubby's sis got bonus, n heard is quite a lot, n she insisted to pay e bill, though hubby kept wanting to pass her his share... The food portion was small, n taste well just average only... Javier has not fully recovered yet, n bcoz of logistics, JP is a suitable place for dinner, as we all took public transport...

Today is e actual Mother's Day, but to me, every day is good n happy enough... Mothers sacrificed a lot for their children, esp child birth time, who can deliver bb except for mothers? Who can breastfeed except for mothers? Only mothers can... mothers hooray!

sick toddler

Javier has been down with high fever n bad blocked nose since monday... he normally is already not tat easy to handle kind of kid,n now with e uncomfortable condition, it's worse.. he kept crying n shouting due to discomfort.. 

 Once e burofen med effect goes off, the fever just shot up above 39.. it made him v upset.. together with e blocked nose, he breathed hard n couldnt drink milk well.. tat made him angrier..

  It's Wed today n fever still lingering.. I wonder when I get to c a recovered Javier.. bcoz of his sickness, Jaden cannot have my attention.. 

  When kids fall sick, e night seems to b unbearable.. it'll b a night of crying, whining.. n adults ended up with tiring body, bad mood n helplessness.. pls get well soon Javier!  

My new handphone!

Today is Labour Day, n I had finally gotten my new phone, Samsung Galaxy S4!! white in colour...

Well, I had always been pondering if to get S4, iphone5 or Note II..

I registered thru FB for e interest in S4, n indeed I was lucky enuf to get e registered email from M1... Tat gives me a free accessory pack worth $160... I did not join e queue on e 27th Apr for their 1st launch of S4...

This morn, my sis acc me to IMM, n to my surprise, e queue was long.. I waited ard 35-40min just to q for a q number..

Waited quite long, so we went to Jcube 1st as my sis need to buy something from Nubox.. When I received e reminder SMS that it'll b my turn soon, we quickly hop on to the feeder bus, n still, my queue number was over.. Quickly went over to 1 of the staff telling her that I was late.. so I had to wait for e next available counter, but the 2nd wait was short...

Decided to get e white colour.. n was issued a letter for the redemption of the accessory pack. Can only redeem from 17th May onwards, at Marina Square.

I was eligible for $25 off e handset as I was e loyalty member of M1... So happy I paid $25 lesser... haha!

There's no need for me to change sim card as it's e same as my iphone 4 sim card... I dun plan to start using tomorrow, will wait til my casing n protector screen arrive... Haha... Excited, but need some time to koe how to use the phone.. Opppsss... Happy Labour Day to all!