Exercising alone

This morning, decided to go for a short jog of 1km... sweat it out... in e evening went to Amore for gym, n then went for e last lesson at 8.30pm kickboxing.

I normally go Mon morn 8.30am kickbox. my sis n i like e instructor alot. This evening's instructor is not e same. But i quite enjoy it too! But felt abit lonely though, Haha..

Went to gym n burnt calories 1st, n another 2.8km.  Downloaded some songs into my S4, n listened while i exercised in e gym.

People believed that, exercise, sweat it out, can help u forget some troubles n stress. In some ways it does help, but i dunno y today it just dun happen on me. After sweating it all out, i still feel rather down.

Well, mayb it's really just my prob by reading too much into it. Think too much?

I did some serious thinking actually. I dunno how long it's going to take me this time. Disappointment can lead to devastation, n til e end will bcome hopeless. I hope this stage dun come.

I had been sick for e past few wks, so lagged behind alot. The run is coming soon, i need to quickly build some stamina. Due to my poor health n asthma prob, it's not easy, but at least i tried...

Suddenly craving for badminton game, a good game. But nowadays ppl are all so busy with work. Well, hope my bro there can organise 1 again soon, his friends are good players. Play with experts or good players will make e whole game a fantastic 1. I dun like to play with idiots n slow players aniway. Hahaa...

I had not been able to lose weight, n slim down... Haiz... But thanks to my sis, she helped me build up e love for exercise n sweating again. I will try to go on my own whenever i can, but of course with her around, it would b better! I think i will sleep real well tonite after exercising.. Gotta put on my facial mask later b4 i sleep.. Tmr still gotta work. Do try some exercising if u have stopped for a long time... perspire in this way is really good!

Coko's 100th day 13-05-14

Yesterday 13/5/14, was Coko's 100th day of departure. 

I did not forget you my dear friend. In fact, it seem that u had left us very very long ago, but actually u only left us for 100 days.

I missed u alot. How r u now at heaven? r u enjoying painless n stress free life there? I did tell e angels to look after you. Hope u had made some friends there.

mummy said during night time there was a big butterfly which flew into e house. Is that u who came back to visit them?

Til now, it still pains me to acknowledge the fact tat u had left us. But on e other side, when i think that you left will b a freedom for you from pain n suffering, it's actually a let go for you. I koe u dun bear to leave us too, it's bcoz u have no choice but to do that. I still remembered mummy n korkor said that u were screaming in pain b4 u left. N when they really let go to say will let u b free, u immediately went quiet. I koe it's a painful decision by us n yourself, who oso cannot bear to leave either 1... But we all koe, n yourself koe that it's time.


I really thank everything n any1 for you to be here with us for so many years. U r always in our mind, do u miss us? 

I hope you will reincarnate into a good family who loves you. U r so kind n gentle, so cute n naive, so happy n handsome. Be a mankind next life ok? Reality has separated u from us, n us from u. We will all continue to live life fully, n of course u  must be happy ok? If there's anything u need help from, pls make sure u go get help. We r no longer around to protect you. U must learn to protect yourself ok? All of us misses you Coko. U r not a dog to us, u r family, our son, our brother. People dun understand y i/we can get so upset over your departure. Oh well, they will never understand n i dun bother to explain. This kind of feeling n relationship they will never be able to understand even if i explain. It's bcoz we never treat u as an animal, but other ppl do. They dun feel the pain n sadness that we go through. They'll never understand how close we used to be. They'll never koe how impt n your position in our family/heart.

Though many ppl dun understand, but Coko, dun worry. there r so many ppl who love u too. Physically we are not ard, but i'm sure we do miss one another. Coko, hope u find happiness in your other side of the world. U had never left us, n u will always be in our minds. I miss you, n everytime when i miss you, i cannot help but to cry. I just couldn't let it go, let it down. I dunno how long i would need to take to let you go, but i will try. Even if 1 day i had let it go, n i wont cry animore when i mentioned you, but it doesnt mean i dun think of u, it's just tat i had moved on n u will still be in my mind. But now, i still had not moved on to the fact tat u had left me. So til now, whenever i think of u, whenever i miss u, i will still cry. I hope ppl dun mention abt u in front of me, bcoz i had not let go. So, please, do not uncover my sadness n misses for you. Pls dun mention abt you in front of me, i cannot let go.

To me, your departure is a regret to me. It's a point of no going back. Til now, i still feel guilty towards you. It took me many years to let go of my grandpa, so pls give me time. I will really move on, but give me time. I will never forget u Coko... really... 

Outing to Gardens by e Bay 12-05-14

After Jingfang's wedding on Sunday, hubby was on leave on the following Monday, which i had arranged him n Javier to collect their passports quite a number of weeks ago.

FIL oso took leave on Monday as he wanted to bring the Gugus to Gardens by e Bay.

After we collected the passports, we actually went there to catch up with them. We went to e flower dome n cloud dome. Well, i still think is a bit too exp to visit this place. But well, it's good to pay a visit as it has been opened for quite some time liao.

The weather was simply great, no rain but big sun. I'm sure all of them enjoyed the trip as they had never visited this place b4. 

We did not go for the cruise ride. After visiting e 2 domes, we did not join them further as i need to go to e airport to fetch my sis who came back from Dublin. It was indeed a very tiring week for me. My sickness had never been fully recovered.

I think, after this visit, i would not wana go there again bcoz personally feel that it's far too exp to come. Haha. But is a good experience to come n take a look lah. Indeed very nice.

Yongcun & Jingfang's wedding 11-05-14

After a few years, the Bong family has a red event yesterday! Hubby's cousin aka 堂妹, got married yesterday at Hotel Rendezvous.


I had been sick for more than a week, n suddenly on Sat night, my eyes feel bad, haiz i know i cannot wear contact lens on e wedding day, so sad.

On Sat, we went to e airport to fetch xiuxiu, 3 gu, 4 gu, xiao gu. n then evening went to da bo's house for dinner. I had a bad headache so was resting til it's time to set off to their house. Luckily e boys are still ok except Javier did fuss n cried lah. But at least we stayed til time to go back.



Sun morn i got up at 6.45am, to bathe n get e boys' stuff ready as we need to leave home by 9am. The couple came back later than scheduled. But still, lucky my sons did not act up til it's time to leave n go home to prepare for e evening.

I drove xiuxiu to get her makeup n hairdo done, and i oso joined in e fun to get my hairdo too. Happy with e hairdo! but makeup i do a plain 1 myself since i cannot wear lens. Managed to tag e transport that Jingfang has booked for the gugus.... phew.. i parked my car at e carpark n we hop on e bus.

Reached e hotel on time n still ample time for e ROM. JP v humorous loh. Haha. After e ROM, we stayed outside for more than 1hr. Phew, i must say my boys r really much better now. No fuss no shouting to go home. Jaden did request to go back, but i told him later, n he did not cry n fuss. Good boy. We managed to stay til e whole event happily for the grp pic too. Got on e transport n all go back together. Both boys did not cry. The whole weekend was busy n tired. i felt more tired bcoz i dun feel well. Lucky i need not drive to e hotel. 

We all had a great time at e wedding. I did not expect my boys to b good. in e past no way we can stay n eat properly, just like my bro's wedding last Nov. really bad. but bcoz of Jav wetting his pants n not enuf sleep bcoz of it's wedding lunch, n Jaden fussing. This is evening event n Jav has had his nap so is like so far ok, better than i expected. Haha.

Hope this couple have a wonderful marriage n may love b blessed with them!