Learning on how to let go?

a phrase i got to know from a friend of mine is indeed inspiring... "it's not about trying hard 2 keep it, it's about learning 2 let go".
friends who know me well, jolly well know that i'm a lady who looks at things rather open. there r many things i already 'kan kai'.... but of course there r still some things which r beyond my toleration.
i'm trying hard to maintain a r/ship... which really tires me... put in quite a lot of effort more than my previous r/ships. thought that it might turn out well this time round... but we have to admit not all things turn out to b the way we want it to be.....
there was once i wanted to give up.... after persuasion from him n Kelly, i picked up my courage n carried on....
i've always tried my best in maintaining n improving to the better... but most of the times, what i got in return was tears n disappointments... n there i was, persisting on my stand that i'm not wrong.
i was rather unhappy today. attended Kelly's sis church wedding even made me feel more discouraged. i really do envy women who find themselves a man who loves n care so much for them. feel so happy for all these ppl... n on the other hand, i pity myself.
from now onwards, i will try to learn on how to let go, so that i can b a happier person. i hope time will heal.

1D Batam Trip=Sickness

on saturday, me, bong, bro n mum joined a tour organised by MOE to Batam... I woke up at 5+ n we set off at 6+ as we need to report to the ferry terminal by 7.15am..
I didn't have a good sleep for the past few nights, and on friday night til sat morn, i only slept for 2 hours.. just can't sleep..mayb slept too much for the last few nights.. serves me right for sleeping so much..
N there we went to Batam... it's a 1D trip, came back around 7+... not really fun though.. coz nothing to buy loh.. shopping queen found nothing to purchase... but the currency there really made my head spin.. all their things r calculated by ten over thousands... coz S$1-Ruppiah $5700... we only exchanged S$25 each... So b4 we purchase anything, we always use hp to do the convert, too complicating...
Last minute shopping, managed to snatch a blouse n 3/4 pants at only S$18... quite cheap hoh?
Was so tired when i got home, after watching everton VS liverpool match, i went to sleep. So happy that Everton performed so well...
On sunday, i woke up at 8+, can't sleep again... so decided to wash up n wash car loh... after that went to eat dim sum with my parents.. when i was buying drinks, i suddenly felt dizzy n nearly fainted.. my money fell to the ground.. after that, i found myself no appetite.. felt very miserbale.. endured all the way til i drove my car home n went back to sleep...
I slept at ard 11am+, all the way til 9pm+... felt so miserable n hot... went to take my thermometer n measured, 39.3! mayb bcoz of the heat in my body, my whole head ached as if it's breaking... i was feeling so bad that i called my bf crying that i felt very bad...
I msg my best friend Kelly to c if she was free to come n fetch me to c the doc... luckily she came n fetch me.. my bf came to find me straight after his work n both of them acc me to c doc.. was given 1 day MC..
Today, my throat started to turn swell, i felt that when i was swallowing my saliva, my throat hurts.. oh, just 1D trip made me sick... job well done.. I was thinking to myself, even if my fever doesn't subside, die die oso must crawl back to school.. our P1 SEED prog is going to botanical garden.. it's a 3-day prog lah... 4 classes each day... i'm going 2 days, tmrw n thurs... coz i have 2 p1 classes.. so die die these 2 days oso must go school... must try to get well asap, this weekend i've to fly to Nanjing Immersion Trip liao.. Please pray for me ok??

5th Uncle moving house... SAD

In another few hours' time, my 5th uncle n family will b moving to Yew Tee... Y do i specially mention them? bcoz ever since i moved in here when i was 13, my 5th uncle also moved in. His whole family lived beside my block.. our main door can c their balcony... so sometimes if we managed to c each other, we would say hello....
This was the place when i witnessed his 2 precious daughters' arrival to the earth. Arena n Annabel.
Bcoz of meimei Bel, they had no choice but to find another place to live... so that they can live near to meimei's babysitter. Belbel's situation gets bad sometimes... N everytime when she gets ill, the 1st place is to visit the hospital. Although we dunno meimei can hang on for how many years, but we all do treasure her. hope she can pull through all these n nurture into a promising young lady.
these 2 cousins of mine r simply cute. Arena is closer to me.. i would bring her to movies, eating, even to the zoo etc...
But from 090906 onwards, i won't b able to c what they r doing... won't b able to c if they had reached home already or not... all these r going to b history.
090906 7.15am, me, Bong, bro n mum will be going to Batam... 1D trip... Hope we will have a great weekend b4 work starts...

5 hours of 'training'

today i made a short trip to school, after meet my brother go JP mos burger for lunch. We proceeded home after that.. thought of going for a nap, but felt restless... suddenly have a craving to sing, so jio my bro to sing... N there we went, to JE Kbox to train our vocals...
But see?? we were allowed to sing for 5 hours.. we reached there around 4+... so we sang until 9pm... what a day to train our vocal... hehe.... I simply love to sing, but this kind of feeling is rather different when i go with other friends...
Normally when 1 sings, the rest will chat n laugh. just ask yourself honestly... did u ever sit down n listen carefully on how your friend sing? Most of us don't, actually.
Now, it's only me my bro there. we'll listen to each other's voice n listen quietly to the music. I think it should b the right way to sing KTV... appreciate other's singing skills. n from there, u'll know how to appreciate friend's voice, n how to learn from them.
Next time when i go KTV with my friends, i will try to listen quietly n learn from them on how to sing better... this can also improve your own way of singing. Though i find my singing skills r good enough. but no 1 is definitely good.. it's always nice to find out how potential are the friends beside u... learn from 1 another, n we can improve our singing skills... If u dun believe, try it.. try to listen to your friends' singing once n c if it really works.. but of ocurse, it'll only work if u r really interested in singing, n improving your singing techniques!

KTV session on Teachers' Day 2006

It's school holiday... so me, ting n hui decided to go sing our hearts out....
We didn't ask too many people along... kris last minute can't make it, so there were the 3 of us left... but oso good lah... not many people, means we can sing more loh... haha
i brought along my camera n took photos using timer... i like to go out with friends who i can talk to, otherwise the whole outing will b such a dampen..
Before leaving, we took 1 more group photo... i wish huihui can come back to PHPPS... so that there'll b 1 more person who i can talk with... I dun like people who put on masks in front of me, at least these good friends of mine, cum colleagues, are true n not fake... we can talk our hearts out without any worries that being afraid of being back-stabbed... That's y i treasure friends like them...

Happy Teachers' Day 2006

Today is Teachers' Day, our day... which comes only once a year...
It is a school holiday, but i went back to school, just to collect my presents given by students yesterday... I oso managed to mark the rest of the workbooks n 1 class of spelling... 2 more stacks of books to go...
These r the presents given by my students... i wanted to open up the presents 2day s it's OUR DAY!!
Can u guess what's inside all the wrappers???
After opening up all the gifts... these r the 'results'.. i got some mugs, bookmarks, display ornaments, precious moments photo album, photo frame n etc.. It's very sweet of my students to give me presents on this special day. though i still think they shouldn't spend so much $$... Next month it's out turn to waste $$ n get some gifts for them... But sometimes u just think abt it.. they only get these presents for some teachers who taught them.. but for us, 1 class is 30 students... i have 4 classes!! so.... oh my god... haha