Celebration of dad's bday in advance 28/9/05

after work,we went to a seafood place near queenstown, to celebrate my dad's bday in advance..
he confirmed his work to taiwan a few days ago.... his bday is on 8th Oct... he tried to ask if he can go after his bday, but was rejected... he has to leave on this friday... so we decided to celebrate early for him... he has always loved to eat seafood... so my sis' colleague recommended that particular place.... it's near the roadside....
felt quite sad that suddenly he is leaving us for work.... this fri will be children's day celebration.. so no teaching that day, but a concert.... my dad needs to reach the airport b4 12pm... so just now i went to ask my principal to check if i can take leave.. so that i can go n send my dad off... luckily me boss is very understanding n she agreed....
hope he can take good care of himself in taiwan... mum bought him a thick jacket n gloves for him 2 wear..... this is ever the 1st time since i got matured,that my dad is leaving us for so long..... he may go for some years... but bcos of some contract stuff, he has to come back after 2 months 1st... after getting the documents done, he'll fly back again... so duno whether he will celebrate new year wif us or not... but something to b sure, he won't b around when we celebrate my grandma's, sis', mum's bday next month... which is quite a pity.... well, this is life... he hopes to pia a few more years so that he can enjoy life... though he's 47 this year.... cos this side,the boss offer him a much more salary.... so after discussing with my mum,they agreed to pia.....
although he may not go for that long, but it's at least 1 year... sometimes he gets noisy.... but will not get too used if he's not around with us... will kindda miss him in a way.. my dog sure miss him a lot... he'll start wonder how come his favourite member,my dad is not at home with him?

Poem Recitation 2005

2day was the competition for P2 poem recitation.... as i was teaching 2 classes of P2, so i have 2 choose diff poems n practise wif them.... We have 8 classes of P2.... but there were only 3 prizes to b given out. i was the MC for this competition....
Among my Lo 2 n Hu 2, Lo 2 managed to get a 3rd prize of $10 NTUC voucher.... Hu 2 lost... so they were rather disappointed....
My Lo 2 presented wif er-ge, named Ying Huo Chong (firefly). but they spoke rather soft so i tot they might lose... but to my surprise, at least they got a 3rd position....
i had a tough week... coz besides my work n duties... i still need 2 fork out time 2 meet these 2 classes n carry out practises... nearly cost me my life... so tiring... SA 2 is coming... but my class seem to get a bit crazy.... can't get them to concentrate... seems like i've spoilt them.... so worry... wat can i do?? goodness..... being a teacher is really not easy.... felt so breathless.... haiz

What is marriage?

i watched CH49.... tao se dan bai zhi... hosted by Tao Jingying n Hou Peicen.... special guest is EMI Li Mingyi... talked about her failed marriage... n this topic "marriage" ran thru my mind... what is marriage?
A very good frd of mine got ROM a few months ago... n i was happy to hear that she is very happy with her fiance... But another bad news was, another frd of mine, had just broken off wif her long-time bf recently... They had been 2gether for SO MANY years... so when they broke off, my feelings were rather strong...
It made me wonder, what actually is love, what actually is marriage? Being 2gether for long doesn't mean will end up being 2gether as married couple... so i was rather pessimistic towards marriage... so i think it's not secure at all....
Like my students, in LO2, 1 of the boy came from a broken family too... it affected his behaviour in class.. which caused quite a lot of prom for me... in the class which i taught music, JO2, has another similar prom...
actually when a marriage fails, the most affected is the child.... y must end up like that? it's very hurtful... esp the children... y must let them suffer such separation?? back to the prom, it's the adult's fault, i can say...
I had always fantasized marriage... but after seeing so many cases like these,it really scared me.. i do not dare 2 think so much abt it animore... nothing is forever of course... but it's how we handle and cherish... i open my mind much more to accept n absorb diff aspects of life n decision... i decided to leave everything to Fate.... Fate will decide for me, who is my final prince charming... til now, i still don't know this outcome.. i'll see this matter wif an open heart... n i'm still waiting for the final day to come, and i'm still fantasizing.... i'm waiting for the day when i can say ' i do' to the man i love, and wearing the beautiful wedding gown.... waiting.........

brother went training in thailand 10th sept 2005

My 1 n only bro was sent to thailand for 2 weeks training.... so yest, me,my mum n my 5th uncle went to send him off.... we went by my uncle's van....
my mum was rather worried as this is the 1st time ever since my bro went on a plane... but i told her not to worry so much as my bro is already a big boy.... we 3 siblings r independent individuals, so i think such trip shouldn't b a prom.... it's nothing serious aniway....
my bro has always not wanted to go, but no choice.... well, this is life, isn't it? consider it as an experience.... he might be able to gain new knowledge there.... but of course, i do hope he is fine there....
Although my bro is the youngest among the 3 of us, but he has been very independent. Mayb due to the upbringing we have in this family.... he can take good care of himself.... this i can be sure... He still can't confirm the exact date to come back, so when he gets to know, he'll call us..... Hope everything goes on well for him in this coming 2 weeks..... May God Bless my Bro.....

Makeover??

It's been 3 years ever i went for my last and ever 1st makeover..... i did receive several vouchers from red earth( esprit comestics)..... i am a member of esprit and supporter of their products.....
Inside this pack of vouchers, there is a makeover session.... but i was pondering whether to go for it or not.... I do wish to go for a new one, but i duno whether i should waste such money on it or not.....
Of course makeover does look nice, so our youth is losing as days passed.... we can't get youth back, but money does.... y does such minor matter also trouble me?? i tend to be over worrying about all stuff around me.... ppl might say,if u want to go then just go ahead with it,y think so much?? just enjoy what u have now or else u'll regret! i do think this way too.... but i think we have to be rational..... have to think 1st b4 we take action.... we are adults..... we have stress..... we have burdens..... so it's always better to think 1st..... isn't it??
Well, let me think it over whether to go for it... actually i don't have much time to think about that bcoz these days, i'm just too packed with work.... haiz...... another trouble...... it sucks..... making my head bloat.... i think it's time i need an inflater to cure this illness.......

Terrible Holiday

It seems to be a week holiday right?? many ppl might think that teachers enjoy such privilege too, but let me tell u,u r wrong!!! esp for me..... who said that we are enjoying 5-day week work?? for this holiday,even my sat is burnt!!
If inclusive of sat,i can tell u this terrible holiday of mine!!! 5 days r burnt for me!!! where is justice??
I felt so demoralising..... I still have 4.5 years to go u know?? But it seems very long..... indeed it's very long.... I have lots of shit work to do!!! it's making me so sad n angry...
I always get headaches.... i think bcoz of all these shit..... I felt that my heart is weakening day by day.... Felt so weak....
Many ppl may think that i'm being well supported in pei hwa, but it's not.... Some1 is currying favour so much that i have no position to stand at all.... I'm the kind of person who dun curry favour.... so if u r waiting 4 me to curry favour u, sorry!!!
But indeed in any aspects of life,we'll bound to meet ppl like that... I'm the kind of person who talks frankly.... If u think u wana destroy me,emmm i think u have to make more effort....
what is this world coming to?? Expect teachers to be all-rounders?? hey,we aren't superman!! It's very stressful u koe?? Teacher, this occupation may sound nice, but the kind of bitterness, u can't experience.... Mayb other colleagues may not have such life like i do, n they may be enjoying their holidays so happily.... oh... unfair world.....
I hate my current lifestyle!!