This is fate

I ask myself, does crying out loud make me feel better? I dunno... I didn't cry this time round. Mayb I should say I'm braver this time..



This is fate, i know. We cannot force. Mayb somehow, I'm already mentally prepared.. Or I should have guessed it..



I know it is disappointing, but there is nothing much we can do now. Grumble? Cry? I've cried enough the other time round. Last week i did cry too, cried all the way from the journey from there to home. But what else can I do but to cry? So, i was surprised I didnt cry this time. Mayb as i said, i had expected such result. All I can say is, this is fate. So sad isn't it?

Why? Why? Why?

I wonder why fate once again wanted to make me a fool now... n i dunno y.. why must such incident happen on us again this time? i koe i cannot blame ani1 or anything.. i cannot give up, n yet i have no right to do anything. wat can i do? by e end of e day, i still need to resign to my fate. is miracle going to happen on me? i hope there will be.. coz tat will b the best x'mas present for me..

Slowly, give him some time

This week is a long week, n tiring week for me.. yes, the pupils had started their holidays but not us.. so stop saying in front of me tat being our line is v good, pupils on holidays we oso holidays...

After being rather emotional yest towards a matter, those ppl who shld koe, yest was 22nd, Jaden started to give us a short surprise again.

Dun panic, slowly.... He til now still cannot speak... yes, but he 'talks' a lot more ever since his birthday passed on Sunday.. These 2 days specially a lot.. but all his own language lah... We didn't stress him or force him, coz we had gotten over that he will slowly catch up at his own pace.

This noon, I called MIL n asked if she will be cooking dinner tonite, n she said she wasn't sure.. then i heard Jaden's voice from behind... MIL said he kept talking n practising to talk... haha... When i knocked off from work, as usual, at the door i would call his name, n he would run to the door... I told FIL it proves tat Jaden has no hearing problem, but as in why everytime he called out for Jaden, Jaden would definitely ignore, i dunno. The only reason that I could think of was, bcoz he knows whether he responds or not, my FIL will still go near him n sayang him...

Just now, Jaden was playing with my iphone, as usual.. MIL n I were watching TV... He was sitting in the middle btwn us... He likes to play a certain game, not a game actually. It's learning ABC, colours, shapes, numbers n quizzes for each section.

Jaden switched to the colour mode... when he click the blue star, the phone will read 'blue'.. vice versa for red n yellow... n koe wat? when he clicked 'blue', the phone read out the colour, he followed suit but pronounced it as 'boo'... he clicked a few times n when the phone read he just followed n read. But when we went nearer to hear him say, he stopped n went out from the game... MIL n I heard it so clearly coz he read it out quite a number of times... n when it read 'red', i think he dunno how to read so he pronounced it as 'yee'.... that he also read a few times... but when i wanted to video it down with my camera, he totally refused to go to that game again..

We always wonder, y whenever he's on his own he would read together with the phone, or when we didn't look at him he would choose all the correct answers.. but when we r in this together with him, he would click anihow... MIL said actually he koes, but he just refused to say n do according when we ask him to...

He scribbles more now too.. MIL said today, he took the drawing board n scribbled.. normally he just stroke off the pen n drew straight lines across the board.. but today he could somehow like drawing in circular movement... not straight lines, are curl lines... I think he is starting to learn.

Slowly, give him some time... he may not b fast, but give him some time... I believe he can do it... well, do u think so too?

~~~ Jaden turns 2 ~~~~

Thanks every1 for your wishes! Yes, Jaden turns 2 today... It has been a happening weekend for this little prince.. n was happening for us too!

Yest noon, brought Jaden to a frd's house... My sis' frd actually... but we know one another.. Sylvastian's son 1st month celebration.. we stayed there for 1hour+ n needed to leave, coz Jaden was tired... his nap started from ard 2.30-6pm... after which in the evening, my best pals came over for a mini gathering... and of course with the little kids too! We ordered kfc n pizza, while Gladys helped to buy fried rice n ho-fun... Received presents from the Lees & Aws, ang bao from the Tays...

We had a great time chatting n seeing the boys having havoc at our house... Delroy was abit tired at the end, so the Aws left 1st.. Tays & Lees left near to 12am...

Jaden started his sleep at 12.30am... Woke up today ard 9am... Brought him to IMM, together with my mum n sis... My bro n biao ge came after that... Promised Jaden to let him play water.. When we were at the Garden Plaza, he patiently let us change him into his thermal swimwear, n there he went with his dad, to play...

He was so happy loh... kept laughing n jumping around... It was really a hot noon loh, can imagine i was sweating!!!! all bcoz i seldom sweat, if i sweat means really hot loh!!!! Near to 1pm, i really felt it was hot, n told Jaden he had to stop... He didn't throw temper loh! great job my son! changed him, my mum passed him his milk, n we put him in his pram...

Took him home n bathed him.. let him play awhile, n i fed him some cereal too... ard 2.15pm, i gave him some milk, n his nap started at 2.30pm... but sleep til 6pm he still not willing to wake up... we had a dinner celebration btwn 2 families this evening at 6.30pm... so at 6.10pm no choice we gotta wake him up..

Quickly went to Safra Jurong to meet up with the rest of the family members... Ordered a set meal... Jaden was well behaved in his high chair, partly bcoz he had iphone to play with... After the dinner, we took the cake out, bought by my sis... sung bday song for Jaden, but this birthday boy dun give face... cry loh!!! walao.... but luckily we managed to catch a full family picture before we left...

I found Jaden abit improving le... n i dun plan to rush him into watever... I blieve he will do so when he is ready... He spends the night at my inlaw's house tonite coz tmr both of us need to work.. went to meet up XL n WX as they bought a present for Jaden.. thanks!! It's the sincerity that counts! We had a great time this weekend, totally taking care of Jaden on our own.. n family time btwn us.. it was great! Finally he is 2 liao... I hope my son can b healthy n cheerful always... must b obedient n hardworking ok?? Daddy n mummy, n your family members love you a lot ok??

17th November - Hari Raya Haji

Yes, u r right! i work 1 day less this week!!!!! Yest was Hari Raya Haji...

Noon time, my sis called me to say, y not bring Jaden to JP n go for a walk... oh, i said ok ah! since my in laws were abt to have their usual activity... so my sis walked over to my in laws' house, n there we went...

I drove, while Jaden n my sis sat behind.. surprisingly he didn't make a fuss or what... Til we reached the carpark, he also allowed my sis to carry him loh.. for quite a distance, from the carpark to the lift, n then out from the lift...

After a while, i put him in his pram n we started pushing.. coz it was too crowded at JP.. went Kiddy Palace to buy some things for Jaden.. then go Mac buy lunch... after which, i drove back to our own house... Jaden was tired, coz when we were in the car, he put his head on the seat.. so when we reached our house, i let hin play a while 1st... changed his diaper n then make his milk... After awhile, he started his nap, n we started to eat our lunch..

We chatted awhile, then my sis went back... Jaden slept for 2.5hours only... Evening time, my in laws said settle own dinner.. so i ok loh.. my sis came over n carry Jaden, n i drive to my in laws' house.. put Jaden with them, n then went off to fetch my mum go Ikea buy a table for Jaden... It's for him to start sitting on the chair n do his things there... Is to prepare him for school actually...

Jaden is turning 2 this weekend, so I think he shld start learning more skills liao.. n tell u what, today, he started to try doing the shape sorter liao.. he started to look for the holes n put the shapes in.... Ya lah, some of u might think, aiyo now then do ah... Ya, he is slow lah... But he is learning now isn't he? My colleague just told me today tat actually Jaden is not slow.. Dun say slow or fast... it's ok one.. so in their eyes, i am v gam jiong... hmmm.. ok mayb i should heed their advice, take it easy. but to b frank, i'm already taking it v easy liao.. coz i know he might not learn as fast as others, but now he is learning liao.. so i'm equally happy. So, please dun use your child n compare with mine... i don't want... thank you...

Jaden finally points

I'm actually v worried about my son... u guys might say i think too much, but sometimes i just couldn't control myself...

Being an educator, i encountered so many diff kinds of pupils a year... When i read up on some infor that if child dun do this or tat at this certain stage of age, then it might be a sign that the child is special.

I'm always v scared tat Jaden might be an autistic child. I told my concerns to hubby's god-sis, who studies psychology. initially she oso suspects that, even my fil will ask my mil abt this. But my mil dun think so..

Jaden used to be so cheerful n has many eye contacts, but ard 6months old he suddenly stopped. he became less babbling, seldom eye contact. i am so worried. Recently he has shown so much improvement, which actually surprised me, though was rather slow n late. But s i said, as long as in the end of the day he did it, i'm happy.

Jaden's motor skills r better. Recently, besides willing to do shape sorter, do flying kiss to us, listening to instructions better, he finally points too. When he doesn't point, i am so scared loh. in the past when he was much younger he would, but after tat he stopped. so now, he starts to point, i'm relieved. but when he points to the various pictures in the flashcards, he did it to make fun of me. He points to apple n waits for me to read, n then points to orange, snake, yo-yo etc.. when he points faster, i need to read faster, he felt it funny n kept laughing. & of course, kept pointing lah... more on making fun of me!!!! but at least we know, he points!

I know he is slow. I dun grumble, n yet I dun like ppl to show off to me what their child can do n then perform in front of me. i got so numb of it. He is turning 2 next week liao, so fast loh. He babbles more now too. Mayb he will catch up more after his 2nd birthday. N hope he can learn more when he enters CC.... luckily my son isn't those type of rough boy, but too crybaby liao.. It's ok, he needs to know tat his daddy n mummy loves him truly!

Air Tickets for 2011's CNY

hubby started to ask me AGAIN, as in r we going back to Kulim for 2011's CNY... my reply is always the same: see how....

PILs asked him again, i assume they dun dare to ask me, so ask hubby... n hubby reverted back to me.. so in order to make him give up, i went to Tiger Airways & Jetstar to check on the air tickets... n koe wat? a 2-way trip cost $500+/pax... i told hubby about this, n he was shocked.. so yest currently stopped the topic.. so PILs planned to take the coach back on their own, w/o us.. coz they know i will not want to take the coach.. Jaden cannot take the long hours coach journey.. the Genting trip has proven to them, so taking the plane is the only way out.

I was still rather happy actually tat we may not go back for CNY liao... opppsss.. but who koes just now evening hubby's cousin called n told my PILs that Air Asia's air tickets r v cheap... She went to check on the price, going back on CNY eve, n back on the 4th day of CNY, per pax only $200+... My PILs quickly agreed n the cousin helped them to book.

Hubby asked me again, n after the confirmation, his cousin sms-ed me the details. hubby double checked the price with her, n told me hey it is cheaper loh, so much cheaper... he asked me again wana go back... i answered him, up to u loh see wat u think. then he told me that i shld koe his answer...

So, no choice loh... went home, hubby asked me to go on net n checked the price n see e availability of the seats.. still have.. so i went to book the tickets for the 3 of us loh. so, it is confirmed tat we will b going back to Kulim for 2011's CNY loh.. hmmmmm... Shall see how Jaden will give me a hard time there.... God bless me......

P2 outing to the Kids Kampong

Yest though feeling slightly unwell, but i still went to school, coz yest was our P2 class' outing to the Kids Kampong... This year, for this English SEED programme, CL teachers are required to go with the class, together with the form teacher.

Yest morn was raining, luckily b4 we set off, the rain had stopped, n the whole outing was fun n cool..

Children got to learn how to 'catch' fishes using the small net provided, learn the diff btwn gerbil, hamster n mice. they even got the chance to touch them. Followed on they use the feeding seeds provided by the owners to feed the fishes, roosters, rabbit, ducks etc.. Can see that they enjoyed themselves!

Though they r not v clever, but all of us can see them putting effort in the studies already. They deserve a pat!

After the outing, we went back to sch... after work, went back to see my precious little darling! as usual, he will get to play our iphone... n wat surprised us was, he finally how to swipe the potato to the mayo n then to the moving man for the smash fiesta game... n he also was learning how to arrange the alphabets in the correct order for the words... i'm glad that he is learning.

Today was on mc again, n is on 2 days mc.. Doc asked me to go on antibiotics liao, coz the cough dun go off n this is e 2nd week... just now after breakfast, Jaden was asking hubby for his iphone again... n when hubby took it out, Jaden mouthed out something like "o-pone".... n said twice... we were laughing at him, saying that it shld b pronounced as 'handphone'... dun tell me he is going to talk soon?? hmmmm... let's observe further...

Fun weekend

All thanks to the Deepavali long weekend!!!! Though didn't bring Jaden home at night due to my bad cough, but for the consecutive 3 days, he was at our house having nap!

Yest morn, brought Jaden to IMM for water play... had breakfast together with hubby, mil n also my elder sis..

Jaden enjoyed his water play there man.. but this time round was good that, when we told him it was time to stop playing, gotta change him n go home liao, he didn't scream n shout... Good boy!! We told him, he did a good job by not throwing tantrums.. n promised him we will bring him here again!

Evening time, brought him back to in laws' house, after which met the Tays n Lees for supper at JW for frog leg porridge.. the Tays drove their 7-seater car, n we went off late.. reached home around 1.30am...

Today, hubby went to work as usual... morn met my family members at Yew Tee Point for breakfast.. my bro drove the rest of my family while i drove my mil n Jaden... after breakfast we went on our own ways... in the noon, i brought Jaden home for nap.. I didn't put on the car seat this weekend, tats y no choice but to take bus with him, n carry him home..

The Tays came over with dinner just now.. bcoz i was alone with Jaden at home... Had a chat, though Jaden did cry a bit here n there lah.. the worst was he refused to get on their car, as the Tays drove us back to in laws' house as my car was there too. Took a while b4 he can stop crying n watch the tv in the car... i supposed he only wants to sit on my car.. bcoz he oso cried n protested when he's on my brother's car... oppppssss...

Tian can pronounce Aunty May so clearly now.. hahahaha.. n i was glad tat he likes to come to my house... How I wish Jaden can b more open up to people around him.. this weekend wasn't as boring n plain as the usual weekends...

Happy Deepavali!!

Yes, it's me who is getting absent-minded! Today is Friday only, not Sat! It's Deepavali.. "Happy New Year" to all the Hindu friends!

This week i was sick, so i only worked 2 days instead of 4.....

Though still down with bad cough, but still went ahead with our date with the Tays. The only diff was, i didn't bring Jaden home to sleep... this week won't bring coz of my cough, n is a bad one.

This morn, went over to 817 n fetched Jaden to meet the Tays for Mac bfast at Pioneer Mall, then we proceeded to Safra Jurong's Kids Amaze. Tian was so funny, he insisted to sit in my car, in the end Jiayi had no choice but to acc him to sit in my car, while Rod drove the car himself n gather at Safra.

We only stayed for 1.5hours, while Tays stayed a while longer. It was bcoz hubby had another apptment. He was going to his colleague's house for Deepavali. He said dun wana bring Jaden over, so in the end only we both mother n son at home... Jaden enjoyed himself so much at the indoor playground til he was reluctant to leave!!!! But just now he did do flying kiss to Jiayi.. haha!

Hubby went off after reaching home at 675.... so i alone bathed Jaden, n fed him cereal, n then milk after which was nap. I told him to sit on his blue chair if he wanted to eat, n indeed he sat down n eat the whole bowl of cereal which i had prepared for him. his nap started at 2pm, n was til 5.30pm! amazing hoh!

Today, Jaden's very own toilet bowl arrived too! I plan to train him during my holidays... i koe this cannot b rushed, but i will try. It is diff from potty, it is a toddler toilet bowl. mini size of the toilet bowl we have in the toilet. Hope to train him to do his 'business' there.. i koe it will take time, but as i said, i will try.

It's always like tat. buy this not useful then will buy the other.. will keep buying n trying til it is successful.. haha... tmr morn hope the weather is good coz wish to bring Jaden for a swim leh! not swim lah, shld say play water... haha... i hope he sleep well at 817 tonite, so tat tmr he will b an energetic boy!

Jaden's flying kiss

Aiyo, my 'good friends' are here to visit me again... arrrggg... was on mc yest n today. tmr going back to work.. yest evening was having high fever 38.8... n my bad cough was still bugging me..

These 2 days were with Jaden.. but not v close to him as i was sick... just wana update abt him doing the flying kiss.

Usually b4 i drove off to work, we will always say bye bye to Jaden. MIL will always try to make his wave n do flying kiss, but everytime he just refused to do, but to smile... a few days, when i was about to leave, the usual routine, say byebye to him... n he also put his palm to his mouth doing flying kiss. I managed to video down on Monday b4 i went to work, n luckily i succeeded!

Today morn, went for breakfast with my sis, together with my mil n Jaden. saw my 4th uncle. my uncle asked Jaden to high 5 with him, n he did with a smile at my uncle. After breakfast, we drove my sis back home 1st. b4 my sis stepped out of the car, she said byebye to Jaden, n Jaden did the flying kiss to her! n a few times somemore... everytime he does that, he will smile n laugh with a shy look!

Noon time, gugu came over with curry chicken n curry fish. of course it's not for me... she played with Jaden, n they were playing catching. Jaden enjoyed alot.. so when gugu wanted to leave, i carried him to the gate, asked him to say byebye to her. of course as usual, he refused to open his golden mouth, but he did flying kiss to her... haha.. it was funny.

i wonder when he can say out 'byebye'.. but we r happy enough tat he is willing to do flying kiss, rather than in e past refusing to do anything but to turn away. i hope he can b more friendly n interactive. so tat more ppl r willing to play with him. Let's see how many more surprises he can give us for the coming few weeks.