I nearly forgot that I have to attend the farewell lunch today, organised by my very own CL department colleagues.
We had a very full lunch at Ban Heng restaurant, at Harbourfront. That I still feel so full during dinner time!
It has been a great 8 years working here in PHPPS. I got to know many good colleagues, good friends, good partners. They had been v supportive and encouraging. It is sad to say goodbye, n I was trying hard to hold my tears, and I thought I could control very well, but still I failed.
It is a hard decision to leave. I tried to be strong. I tried to be happy. I enjoyed every moment I spent in this working environment, which is just like my 2nd home. Of course we always complain of busy work time, frustrating markings, endless works n projects, angry with pupils, but still, we enjoy teaching.
Teaching is a job with a mission. It is not any easy simple job as in just work blindly and get paid every month. No passion, no qualities, u can forget abt getting into this line. I never knew I would enjoy teaching that much until I enter this profession.
No 1 is born to be a teacher. But somehow I think it does need a bit of talent.
I did not say that I am a good teacher, neither do I think I am talented to be a teacher. I like this job, I cannot just wait for salary to come. But I do get v tired n frustrated when sometimes the thought of teaching disappears. We need to be an octopus, everything oso need us to do. I always thought, teaching should be teaching. Why do we need to do projects, duties, other admin work that is killing us bit by bit. Go back to the root of the profession. Teacher = teach... not do other things that the time to do other work is more than teaching. This is not right.
I cannot bear to leave my pupils. but I think the time is up. I need to leave. I need to find my passion back. this is my comfort zone. my colleagues, my friends are all here. We help one another whenever necessary. We are strongly bonded. Of course I cannot bear to leave them. But if I don't take up e 1st step to step out, how would I know if the sky outside is blue or gray? I want to go see n explore n try it out.
I love them. I treasure them. I am so sorry that I cannot go on e path to war with them again. But my spirit is always around.
After some weeks n months of considering, we decided to put Javier in CC... initially I was still thinking if to put cc or those kind of 2hr enrichment classes... but in e end still chose cc.
I was on e phone with the in charge a few weeks ago, n received their forms etc. Today finally went down to e cc to meet 1 of the ST, forms submitted, uniform collected... next thing is to wait til his 1st day admission to the cc.
We r worried abt him adjusting, bcoz he is super sticky n fussy. He cries easily n very loud. He can cry very long. Haiz, I only wish he can learn how to minger with peers, get along with peers, learn together with peers n adjust to cc life.
He needs to learn more things that he cannot learn that fast at home. This big-eyed boy is far too stubborn. He will get to learn that not every1 accommodates to him. he will learn many things, n under peer pressure, he may learn faster n better. But of course, b prepared he will learn bad things too. Tats 1 part of growing up.
In his life, all r adults, n there is only a child who is in his life n that is Jaden. He needs to know that he must learn to communicate with peers, n not just korkor in his life waiting to be bullied by him. I dunno how long he will take to adjust to cc life, but all I koe is he will sure need at least 1.5mth! at least ok!!!
I dunno how to mould him into a better boy, n wat? I am a teacher, n yet I dunno how to teach my own child. Faintzzzz... I dun expect my children to b clever or outstanding. I want them to learn to b a good person, a kind person, a person who can contribute to the society. Every1 learns at their own pace. If results good of course happy lah... no parents want to see their kids getting failures all the time. But, I think Jav needs to learn after all. He is too obstinate. It's going to be a hard time for him to adjust. But I have to let him try. Dun try, n I never koe. Who koes he can adjust faster than expected? He must learn to love schooling, like that then he can learn better coz e mentality is on e right track.
I'm utterly disappointed with my Rio.. This is e 5th time that it gave me problem!
On Sat daytime it was still ok, but when night time we went to the carpark, I put my car key in, n then cannot turn.. I know it's going to b a tr
ouble again. Tried several times n still cannot turn. No choice, we took a bus home.
Told 3rd gugu n xiuxiu that I cannot help to send them to USS, coz car spoilt. I tried my luck by bringing the spare car key n try on Sunday night, n still no chance... Gone case..
Yest Mon, took a bus to school.. it has been 8years ever since I took a bus to work. That very evening, my 4th uncle n aunt came to help.. Noon time my uncle already took my spare car key to try after his work, but evening time when we go try again, still not moving. He helped to call a car workshop boss whom he patronised. The boss drove over to help me see what went wrong.
He said the lock in my ignition was spoilt, need to tow away n remove my steering wheel n repair e lock inside.. No choice, n he said at least cost $500.. My heart sank n hurts!
This morn, e car was towed... I went to take bus as usual in e morn.. The boss said need ard 2 days to get e car ready. He agreed to help drive my car back to in laws' hse carpark after it's been repaired.
Just now evening ard 7.45pm, my aunt called me n said e car was ready, n was parked at my in laws' house that carpark already. I was shocked.. huh? this morn just towed, n now it's ok liao?? My uncle n aunt were there to receive e car n etc... so paiseh to let them wait on my behalf, ended up they had dinner late. I went to meet them quick, n passed them e cash..
Please b good car... I changed e air con, compressor, car lock.. n this is e 5th time u r being naughty! I think I really need to consider carefully if I should sell u away n take public transport instead liao.. Fed up with u.. But please, at least, let me drive with peace til Dec, for me to decide firmly to keep u or give up on u.
I think age is catching up.. n Javier is getting heavier n heavier, though he is quite small size...
He is very attention seeking... these few weeks, we had been v irritated by his tantrums. Some of e days, he would stick to me like super glue... sometimes he just want me to carry n no other ppl, not even his dad..
He is quite lazy these few days. dun want to walk on his own. Yesterday he dun want his dad to carry at all. So no choice. not even when we reach e carpark. I told hubby tat I will place him on e car seat since he dun want hubby to carry.
When I put him n buckled up, the moment I get up n I hurt my back. ouuucccch. it hurts.. it's my left side of my back. the moment I lift up my left hand n move my body, the back hurts a lot.
I went to see my usual family doctor... n was given a jab to get e pain relief faster. Oh, what a day...
I think Javier is getting out of hand... n we r v troubled over this boy... I am getting so much better ard late noon.. n it's even better today. Hope I dun encounter such pain again e next time. that is scary ok?
Friday was e prefects' investiture... my P2 has 6 pupils nominated by us to be junior prefects.. n e other 2 are AV reps, to assist us in e AV... they r also considered as sch leaders.
I am so proud of them when I see them marching in, pledging to b good responsible leaders, which I believe they will be...
They r not clever type, but they r obedient. My AV reps may not b e most outstanding grp of boys that I have throughout my 8 years of AV team, but they r v fast n responsible.
I cannot bear to leave them, that's for sure. They r 1 of the batch tat I like throughout my 8 years of teaching.
After end of e year, they'll b separated into different classes, n it won't be this grp of 30 same pupils in e same class again. It's common to split, but I find them adorable. They always tell their parents how 'funny' I am... Hahaa...
This is e last class photo tat we will b taking as a whole grp of this bunch of pupils, together with me n Naf.
No matter wat, I hope they will still do their best, regardless of which class they enter. Prefects, do your jobs well n be a role model for your classmates, tat is v impt. I am so proud of all of you. I really do.
Germaine, my cousin Weiling's newborn bb girl, held her full mth showers early by 1 week.. she is also my popo's 1st Wong family's great granddaughter...
It was held at Bottle Tree Park.. So far... Yishun....
This is e 1st bb girl in this generation.. Haha... We had a great time chatting, eating... the weather was great...
It was a cosy event.. My cousin is a v mild tempered n nice girl.. I am sure the bb girl will take after her... BB looks like her dad by e way.
My cousin is a humble lady who is v cheerful n kind. She speaks softly n is always smiling. She has been with this man for many years b4 they got married in 2011. She would want to have 2 kids at most, as stated by her. My jiu mu is helping her to look after Germaine. My jiumu is v experienced in bb sitting. After all, all my 3 cousins were looked after by her on her own. Confinement oso done by my jiumu.
I hope bb Germaine can always b healthy n b as happy as her mum. Hope she has big round eyes like her mum too. Most imptly, a kind n humble person like her mum.
I always like to have extra things, not liking to buy or do things at e last minute.. I broke my prev pair of specs 1 night, tat i didn't see properly, ended up stepping on e specs n broke it! faintzzz... had always wanted to make a new pair, but no time n chance until last week..
Tingting brought me to a specs shop tat she n her family always patronise. Winnie n Hu Ying went along too...
My degrees no change... After choosing some frames, i decided on 1 of the pair, n bcoz i need to drive so actually wanted to get transition lens which may end up paying more, but the boss asked me to choose another kind, which has diff colour change that kind of lenses, so i oso anything loh.. total damage $130! cheap right!
I oso bought 1 month of supply of daily disposable lenses from him. End up i only paid $190 that day with a pair of specs n contact lenses.
I was v happy bcoz i had never gotten a pair of specs at such price!
This evening went back there after work with Tingting, Winnie n Xiaoting, to collect our specs.. Tingting oso made a pair for herself..
I am v pleased to pay such low price for a pair of specs.. Haha...
