Random thoughts

I always think of too many things, tats y i dun sleep at nite i suppose. Same for now, hubby is sick sleeping in the room now, n i'm in front of the pc, so many things appearing in front of my mind. Been on mc since last Thur til now, will b back to work tmr. Last week was bcoz of flu, this week bcoz of my vomitting. Well, i tot the vomitting is over but........ hmmmm.. cross fingers pls stop! 1 thing tat bothered me for many years liao: Studies. Actually i did think of pursuing my degree, but in e end think think think, 5 years over liao still stuck here. I always think I'm bad in studying n i cannot handle, somemore no $$... It's so hard for me to get a diploma loh, let alone a degree. how to handle? somemore my heart has always not been in career. I koe with a degree, it's easier to get a job out there, n esp with my profession, is even more easier, somemore I'm a local, diploma is specialised in the language, not general. but i just couldn't make myself to register. Dun wish to end up giving up halfway, n yet dun wish to make myself suffer. Hubby n I are not good in studying, n have no fate with books. Both of us r just dip holders, holding a simple job with simple pay. No luxury no nothing. I dun dare to pin too high hopes on Jaden bcoz his parents r not clever, how to expect him to b cleverer? I just hope, he can achieve the necessary qualifications needed by that time when he grows up. If he plans to further study, we will try our best to help him lah. Of course, is hope he can achieve something big so tat we can b proud of him. I hope he is also good in character. Clever or good in studies is not the most impt. character is more impt. Now, it's more impossible for me to consider abt degree already. I have more things to handle. Though I dunno if i can do it well, but i will try. I'm glad i have many good n positive frds around me to show me their support, really. it made me more positive.

Our weekend

It's so pleasant to have a Sunday with hubby around with us, bcoz his shift starts on a Sunday, so we never will have a Sunday with him. He's on leave, bcoz my PILs are still in Kedah, will b coming back tonite.

I always enjoy to have a peaceful & quiet weekend. Weekdays are busy & tiring days. Yest morn, brought Jaden to nearby playground to play after bfast, to let him exercise. Well, he's full of energy on Sat, as he got up b4 4am to play. All thanks to the sleep he got on Fri. Lucky, yest nite his timing tuned back to the normal. phew.

Had enuf of outside food, actually. Yest dinner decided to cook at home. Well, yes i do cook, just tat i am lazy to do it tats all. Yest, boiled soup, sardines, long beans with prawns, steamed meat were our dinner. Mayb the next meal, i wana stir fry a promfret, or steam it. See when is my next good mood. haha...

This morn, met up with my parents for bfast at West Mall. Jaden now is more sociable. He is more willing to play with ppl already. We were surprised he's ok to let my parents carry. He seldom see my parents aniway. In the past, he would resist when they wanted to carry him. At least today, he allowed them to carry.

My dad was busy chasing him. Haha... this active boy runs v fast i can say. V naughty. Always refused to wait n walk together, tats y hubby dislikes bringing him out. I can b more relaxed today. Lucky my dad is still young! hahahahaha! After bfast, went to Tom & Stefani to see if there is anything or suitable toys for our precious prince, but couldnt find any. He was busy running ard, exploring the place.

He started his nap ard 15min ago. Wanted to rest. Strange, he just got up near to 9am today loh. When i went into the room to switch on my pc, he couldn't see me in the living room, as hubby was with him there, he started to whine n went to look for me. I asked him y, i sayang him. he quickly walked over n let me hug him. After tat, he wanted me to make milk for him, he wana rest liao, ok loh. I just hope he can nap til ard 4pm, so tat when we go to the airport, he won't b too tired...

Sleeping King

Jaden likes to sleep since young, but I think he is not as flexible as me.. He only wants to sleep in his comfort zone...

This morn, my PILs left for Kedah for tomb sweeping. Jaden wasn't in his tip top form, but at least didn't throw tantrums. He had his medicine b4 we left for the airport.

He was obviously tired when we were at the airport, but simply refused to sleep in the pram. When we left, halfway at the expressway, he fell asleep beside hubby. When we reach our hse carpark, he woke up. After we parked the car, I carried him n he lied on my shoulder.

Reached home ard 12pm. He was still tired. So we quickly changed his diapers 1st, n i made him some milk again. He wana rest in yaolan, so we let him be. After awhile, he dozed off again n slept til ard 5.40pm when we kept asking him to get up. If not, I think he would not want to wake up.

I fed him his med at ard 8.40pm. Ard 9.30pm, he started to make noise again. Want me to put him in yaolan.. So, at 10.15pm, he slept again. I hope he won't get up in the mid of the nite to play loh. Or else i will get hubby to entertain him. If he didn't get up in the mid of the nite, then i am sure he will wake up v early tmr.. All I hope is, Jaden can recover even more by tmr, coz he sleeps alot, which actually can help in recovering. Gd nite sleep my boy. Love you.

Both mother n son sick

Jaden was down with high fever from Sat midnite for no reason... Sun brought him to the doc with 39.1 fever, so Monday he did not go to school.

his cough started too, so Tues n Wed did not let him go school too. For me, I was down with bad running nose since Monday. Thought may be sinus prob but who koes on Tues nite, my running nose tap kept dripping for the whole nite til Wed.

Yest, I had splitting headache when I was at work. My eyelids were so heavy tat I feel like sleeping. My nose did not get any better. I was determined to tahan til the end of my work time. When I reached PILs house, MIL told me Jaden also kana running nose. Oh my, I felt so bad. It must be me, he must have caught my bug. I went to the room n take the thermometer, n found out tat i had slight fever.

Went to find my usual docs but all not around, so i decided to go home n sleep instead. Sweating almost the whole nite, my fever managed to subside. This morn went to the doc n got some flu med n mc to rest at home. N yet i cannot rest well, all bcoz of the I***** family. They r making a scene, screaming n shouting, making lots of noise tat made me fed up. So i decided to get up from my bed n blog.

Jaden won't b going to school for this whole week. I hope I can be much better by tmr, coz we need to take care of him on our own this week. Hubby cannot handle him, n I'll b the 1 to suffer if I still cannot recover mostly. This is a bad week i suppose. I hate to see Jaden falling sick, coz I'm so afraid his condition may end up in hosp like b4.. Hope he can recover soon my dear!

March holidays

Time passes rather fast this year, now is already in Mid March liao, n is mid of the March holidays already too. Haiz, just dun have the mood to work, but no choice.. not rich to be a SAHM. Haha, so gotta slog til Sept, which is 6 more mths to go. I will try my best to b more positive.

The weather nowadays is really not v good. I dun feel like going aniwhere today, simply felt tired. But I do hope tmr can bring Jaden out, go where?? I dunno leh. Hubby not v willing to bring him out, coz Jaden is not obedient n doesn't listen to him too.

I always feel rather guilty of not having more energy to bring him out now. I hope my energy level can come back fast.

I'm trying to see if can find an outdoor playground that has a swing that can let him play on. Those type of swing which looks like a baby chair, tat can put them in, n not those we used to sit on, those crescent shaped swing. MIL said Jaden has not tried playing on that. OK, i will try to find out where has it ya.

I hope time can slow down for this week, coz I really dun look forward to the start of work. haha! Been far too lazy liao.. Just wish to be at home n laze n sleep! wow, sounds like a pig! well, it's ok to have some dreams at times, isnt it?

Jaden kana bitten

Many friends around me may find me a very protective parent, yes watever u think.. when u have your own child, u will understand my position, esp if your child is the gentle type of kid.

Some parents may feel tat being bitten or beaten by classmates/friends ard their age is perfectly fine, it's a part of growing up. But sorry, not every parent feels tat way. at least for me, i dun think tat way.

My son was tortured by needles, operation since young. I was so heart broken n thus super strict with his diet n the intake of food. It's all for his own good. Mayb bcoz of his health condition, I'm more protective in a way or another. But u cannot blame me. So, to me, my son's skin is very precious.

This morn, he was bitten on the hand. i won't reveal the culprit's identity. But really, i was pissed. Bcoz this wasn't the 1st time that my son was aimed. just tat we always managed to stop it in time, but this time my son was not lucky. Last week, Jaden was being hit on the head, hair being pulled, n nearly kanna bitten too. I also close 1 eye already. Even this time kanna bitten, i didn't get angry n scold the child loh. I've been tolerant. People who koe me should koe my pattern, I'm considered v calm this time liao right?

Yet this child's mum liked to badmouth me behind my back. Sound as if she is so pathetic, let other ppl including her relatives thought i'm a bad guy. Well, yes i'm a very direct person. I dunno how to please ppl or act. But watever i'm saying r all the truth. Unlike such ppl... so fake.

I seldom complain how my son was being 'bullied' or wat. Jaden is naughty at times too. N we do hit him. I just think tat parents shld b stricter in this area. I never blif in not hitting a child n yet can make him/her a good person. after all, we also kanna beaten by our own parents when we were young. I dun wish to pursue any further coz i really got v fed up. No next time that this child will get near my precious son. I'm sorry. U think your son's skin is thick enuff but sorry, my son's skin is very expensive.

Meet-The-Parents session

Finally, the annual event of meeting the parents was over yesterday. It was a non school day for the kids, but we need to be in school by 8am.

I dun like the session all the while, to b frank. Actually, there is no need to meet some of the parents, but they still wana see us. I assume they just wana hear some praises of their children from us personally. Those really problematic ones won't come.. those no need to come one all come... haiz...

I only had my lunch at 2pm. So sianzzz loh. supposedly the lunch time for us was 12.30pm, but u koe, some ppl were just being inconsiderate.. Well, no 1 came to 'save' us too lah, so wat to do? sit n continue entertaining the parents til no more comes then can make use of the time to sneak off n go for lunch.

Every year, the same problem arises, n i oso dunno wat can b done. This is my 6th year already. Got so numb of it. Well, this is life. Every1 thought this job of ours v good. Wait til you join us n let's see if u still dare to say things like that.

TABLE event at Aws' place

Yesterday was our TABLE event. This time round is at Aws' place.. 1st was at ours, so the next will be the Tays' turn to be the host.

Brought Jaden home on Fri... Yest morn brought him to have bfast with my mum, and then to my mum's place to play. Jaden had a great time there!

Noon, I cooked simple lunch at home. Let Jaden nap, n he slept til 6pm+... Was supposed to reach the Aws' place at 6.30pm, but was obviously late. But it's ok, coz we r not the latest! haha!

Lots of food prepared by them. We had great fun chatting, eating, n playing with the kids. It's so much fun when the kids are almost quite near to age. Like the boys, they are all 6 months apart. Have many topics to talk about, esp sharing news to one another.

Jaden was having so much fun loh. He laughed so much yesterday! We left 1st at ard 10pm. I was tired, n MIL called ard 9+ to ask abt her grandson's whereabouts.

Jasline was v nice. She suggested to buy a cake for Kelly, as her bday is coming. She reached 1st to the Aws' place. B4 we left, we quickly get the cake ready, while the rest diverted her attention elsewhere. When Kelly was walking to the living room, then we all sung Happy Birthday song for her. My pal was v happy!

I'm also v happy. My son enjoyed himself during the gathering. After so long, it was the 1st time our TABLE event was full attendance. And of course, the number of members in the TABLE group must keep increasing. It will be more fun! I think more fun is coming when the kids are much more older!

We managed to catch group photos. The Tays' maid helped us to take pic. The event was so happy n enjoying! This time round, I'm sure the food can b finished. I look so forward to the next gathering at the Tays' place!

Think too much

Ever since I started work, I began to feel stress again. I started to think a lot during the daytime, so when it's night time, i totally have no much strength for anything.

When i reach home, i would quickly get changed n wash up, then will go to bed n sleep. n when i sleep, i started to dream, n normally will dream all e way til morn when i get up. When i wake up, i feel so tired. Go to work, i feel exhausted n e bad feeling came back.

Even will have nitemare. oh my, i hate it. Recently oso dunno wats wrong with me, when i sleep, i will sleep til the middle of the bed, resulting hubby had no space but to go to the other room to sleep. When i get up, i would ask him y he didn't sleep beside me, n he would tell me abt my sleeping posture. But normally I would not do that. I would sleep at my part of the bed. wats wrong with me?

Mayb i really think too much, worry too much. I hope such thing will stop soon, bcoz i really feel so exhausted.