30th June 2011

Today is the last day of the month of June.. 30th, which marks that we had been married for 3.5 years. Today rained almost more than half a day, tats y it's cooling. Finally a day which I no need to sweat n thirsty like mad.

Had a great coffee n cheesecake session with my best pal today at JP. I'm glad tat we stay near to each other. Sometimes we would meet up for bfast together, or facial sessions, massage, or high tea session. It's great. But a pity, the diff btwn us is, I'm not a SAHM. hahahahaha!

Will be on super long weekend break all the way til Tues then go back to work. But I'm not tat free lah. Brought home a pack of compos to mark. Hope I can find some time out to mark, so that I can give it back to the pupils on Tues. Had been left unmarked for 1+mth.. oppppsss

In this 3.5 years of marriage, of course there r ups n downs, happy n unhappiness. Nothing is smooth in the path. If there is, then u must b lying. This preg gave me lots of stress, and I had been crying easily over little/major matters. I hope after delivery will be back to normal self. No 1 is perfect in the world I know. No 1 is forever happy. If some1 tells u tat she/he is very happy, then please dun blif. Whether u r happy or not, ppl can see n it's for ppl to comment. R u sure u r happy every minute every second in your marriage? If is not, then cannot say u r happy.

I koe in a marriage, it's fated. But i still think both parties must put in effort to keep it going. Though ppl now think divorce is nothing, but that shld b the last resort if really no way of saving it.But i still wish all married couples including myself can keep our marriages all the way lah. Soon, in Dec, will b our 4th wedding anniversary. I hope I can b more positive, so tat can keep me going. I oso hope hubby can oso keep reflecting on how he can be a better person, a better hubby, a better husband.

1st day back to work after June holidays

After a short break of 2weeks, today we need to report back to work... BTW, i'm sorry tat i dun look forward to going back to work ya.. But no choice, I have no chance to be a SAHM..

This morn as usual, MIL n I brought Jaden to school in the morn.. Phew, he did not cry or whine after a weekend.. Can even wave us goodbye n flying kiss to us. So that we can go for bfast with a rested mind.

I have no meetings to attend today, so can go fetch him b4 I proceed to school. Who koes, he did not allow me to go to work. When MIL told him I need to work, he cried n held onto my hand. I carried him n coaxed him, he was ok. but the moment MIL took over n carried him, he cried. He refused to let go of my hand, n held on v tightly all the way til the lift.

MIL asked me to let go n leave. Jaden cried out very loudly. I had no choice but to let go of his hand. Felt so guilty n sad at that very moment. Felt like crying again. Haiz... My Mondays are forever busy n packed. Have no time for anything at all.

After work, went to fetch hubby from home as he had headache. He left the company at 5.30pm to go see doc, then went to my PIL's hse. Jaden was very happy to hear me calling for him. He quickly ran to the door n welcomed me with his own gestures.

MIL told me, he cried v badly for quite some time, even when reached the house. He cried non-stop. It's only after a while when MIL decided to leave him alone n let him cry all he wants, then after while then he was willing to stop. Oh my... My poor boy... Sometimes he is ok to let me go to work, but today he was not willing to. So, had decided, tmr fetch him go sch, but i won't fetch him from school. aniway tmr i have a meeting to attend, so also cannot go fetch him go home. I always felt guilty towards Jaden, as I think I dun have enuf energy for him. I hope after the birth of his brother, I can compensate him b4 i report back to work after Maternity Leave.

Sinful dinner at Seoul Garden

How many years had we not gone to Seoul Garden for a meal?? YEARS!!!!! The last time we had was when the branch was still around at JP.. So can u imagine??

My craving for Seoul Garden started yesterday, n finally today hubby accompanied me there. After settling Jaden at my in laws' place, we set off to Clementi Mall. Well, we need to wait for seats. Waited for ard 20-30min i think. Finally got the chance to eat the food there.

It was different from the past. Now, we order wat we want from the computer, n food will b sent over. Unlike the past, we go n take watever we want. Hubby & I only had bread in the noon, so our stomachs were saved to have dinner there.

Had a great time eating til my tummy surrendered. I think bb J might b complaining that I'm feeding him too much food.

Had been v depressed for the past few weeks, esp last week. Really broke down. I think I need a break. Today, it was somehow a relief for me, to eat wat I want. I hope all these unhappiness can be gone asap. I dun wish to talk animore abt what happened, bcoz I have cried more than enuf that day. It's affecting me, n esp bb J. I hope he dun turn out to be a grumpy baby, or a baby who frowns alot when he is out.

We ate til we were so so full... But the feeling was great, it has been such a long time ever i can eat like tat. As usual, the price wasn't cheap. But somehow I enjoyed myself. Mayb I'm short of such activities to help with my depression. I'm in my last trimester now, and I hope everything will b just fine. I need to b strong, I have to be strong. I will try. After the craving to eat at Seoul Garden, I'm satisfied. Hope I dun have other cravings again!

Jaden is 31 months old

Yes, today is the 21st of the month, which marks Jaden being 1 month older.. 31 months, not fast not slow...

My precious son is still feeling unwell, though can run n play as usual already. Today, he is super grouchy, dunno y... He has not started speaking up, so is hard for us... Kept throwing temper n cry over small matters.. Didnt nap at all..

Gotta b more patient since he is still sick. I just think that, dun expect your children to understand u when u as a parent, dun give in effort to understand them... Dun expect kids to b robots, listen n follow watever u say. It's impossible.

Sometimes I do wish he can talk, so that I can know better what he wants. I'm trying my best to understand him. It's tough, n i wonder when he can speak up, really. He dun want to talk, but will sing... haiz.. wat can I do?

It's not easy to be a parent, i finally understand. But no matter what, I will try to be a good one. No 1 is born to know how to handle babies/kids, or be a parent. All must learn, n see if you have the initiative n effort to learn or not. I just think one will be a failure if by now, if your kid is old enough, n u dun even koe wat your child likes/knows abt the stuff around him/her.

I do feel tired at times too. I'm not made of metal. I'm not superwoman. i need a break too. but i still make an effort to accompany Jaden n make myself like a clown in front of him. At least Jaden will stick to me. He knows I will accompany him. Soon, he will welcome a new member into the family. i expected him to have some behavioural prob, such as attention seeker or throwing temper. I will try to put in more effort in him to ensure him tat I still love him as much. Hope he can b more sensible loh.

TABLE event 18-06-11

This time round was the 3rd round of steamboat activity, held at the Tays' house yesterday! Full attendance except for Jaden, bcoz he was down with running nose n cough.

The Tays put the table outside the flat, we ate outside while the kids played inside. Luckily Jaden didn't come, or else he would have transmitted the viruses to the rest of the kids. But I'm no any better, was coughing all the way. I caught the flu bug from my prince. No choice, I had to take care of him even I was coughing like nobody's business.

We stayed til 12am+ b4 we left. Jaden's breathlessness prob came back. Luckily today evening managed to put it under control.

Soon, there will b 2 more boys joining into the TABLE group. I'm sure it's going to b so much noisier. Total of 5 boys n 1 girl... Oh my, too many boys huh?? Hope when they grow older will b closer loh, just like their mummies. But surprisingly, under normal circumstances, Princeton will 'fight' with Delroy, or Jaden. But Jaden n Delroy won't 'fight' with one another. Funny isn't it? The boys' age are 6months apart, 1st Princeton, then Jaden n after tat Delroy.

Kelly prepared far too much food. We really couldn't finish! But it was nice! I've gained ard 10kg so far, n still in my 2nd trimester. I hope can slim down asap this time round. Had a great chat with my pals yesterday. Coz there r so many things bottled up in my heart, and was glad i could pour it out in front of them, at least will feel better after saying it out. I really felt blessed that Fate made us meet one another.

It's not easy to find a bosom friend. Some said, if u managed to find 1 in your lifetime, it's enough. Yes i agree. There r many 'friends' out there who are not really real friends in our life. I'm grateful that e friends around me aren't like that. They r really friends. Friends who laugh, cry, share your sorrows/happiness with you. I'm glad that TABLE group is constantly gathering up. N the next will be held by the Lees... Do look forward to it man!

Checkup at NUH

Last week when I went for my gynae checkup at the clinic, my gynae said my aminotic fluid seems abit too much, might b due to diabetes, so she suggested me to go NUH Women's Clinic to do the blood test, as in the clinic can either do on Wed or Sat, go NUH do easier since she will b there too.

Yest started my fasting. This morn I reach NUH 10min earlier. Hubby took urgent leave to go with me. 1st blood test taken from my right hand. After tat gotta drink up that super gasy n sweet glucose drink, n was told not to vomit. Well, it wasn't my 1st time doing that. During Jaden's time oso did that. Endured hard not to vomit.

Stayed at NUH for nothing for 2hours, b4 going for the 2nd blood test on the left. After which, went to the Fetal Care Centre to go for the growth scan. Shall not go into the details of e purpose of this scan. All I can say is, luckily everything is ok. Mind at ease... phew. Shld b in my 27th week, but the scan report wrote was 26wk, so my EDD has been pushed back by 6 days. So, 1 thing less to worry since the report is ok.

The scan took us 30min+, n was really detailed. The sonographer tried to use 3D scan bb J's face, n somehow i think i saw the face, looked like the face of Jaden when he was just born! But was a mini version.

Next thing settled my mind today was settled by the help of my best pal... All thanks to her, tat it was settled too.

Next apptment will b 3weeks later. Will b just routine check if not wrong. BTW, I dunno wat I shld really do if i'm not diabetic, n yet aminotic fluid is still on the alot side.. well, see wat my gynae will say. Definitely will ask me not to over-eat... hahaha!

Breakfast @ Jurong Central Park Macdonald's

This morn, both hubby n I brought Jaden to the Jurong Central Park Mac for bfast, together with my sis...

It was rather a warm weather today I can say. We couldn't find any seats inside, so no choice sat outside which was quite sunny. Jaden chose a table which was near the side, so it's more sunny!

As usual, Jaden had his hashbrowns!! but now i can say he is more willing to try other food. He has tried chicken wing, luncheon meat, chicken floss bread too. He oso v kpo wanted to try hubby's iced tea, so we let him try loh, if not he will be v noisy. He has never tried cold drinks b4, as i am v strict towards his diet. He couldn't stand the coldness! haha so funny!

There is a small fountain water area at the Mac. Initially tot Jaden may not see tat, but in e end he still did. Luckily, his swim attire was in the car... I went to take for him, so tat he can go play. Hubby was telling me dun let him go, I was like, nvm mah, wats the worry? It is not a pool, is just water.. He is not going to drown.. He had no choice, so we changed him into his thermal swimwear, n hubby brought him over to play, while my sis n I continued to eat n chat.

After awhile, hubby carried Jaden back. The toddler did not fuss, bcoz the fountain stopped splashing water! hahaahahaha! So, we changed him back to his clothes loh. After which, we went over to my parents' house n sat for awhile b4 bringing Jaden back to our own house.

His nap started at 1.40pm, n ended ard 4.20pm. My energy level not s good s b4 liao. I hope to have more time with him b4 Aug, coz I think by Aug my level of energy shld b v little. Seeing this toddler being happy n spirited, I felt happy. They should remain naive n happy at this age, isn't it?

My long-time good friend Candy's wedding

Candy, my good friend of 17 years... Has known her when i was 12, a little earlier than my TABLE pals...

When we 1st moved to Jurong in 1994 April, our district there was v quiet n new. In Dec, somehow got to know Candy as she stayed the block beside us. Started to know her bro, n then we started to roller blade together, n play roller hockey too. N just like that, my biao ge joined in, my siblings, her bro Kelvin, our another grp of frds Melvin, Shunwei, Ivan became a group of kakis.

Candy & I were v close when we were much younger. We went to work together, our ex-bfs were buddies as well etc... But after a few years when we proceeded to our own studies n career, we seldom meet. But we still kept in touch.

When I got married in 2007, they attended my wedding. So, when is her turn, I attended too. Though carrying a big fat tummy, but I still went to give my blessing to this long time good friend of mine. We went thru alot together, and used to confide in each other. Seeing her getting married, I felt v happy for her.

I hope can hear her baby news soon, as we r not any younger now, to b frank... Me, her bro n Melvin r parents now, so hope she can join parenthood soon too. Hope this gd friend of mine will have happiness from now on.

Jaden tries meat

To our surprise yesterday noon, Jaden came up to me when we were having lunch at home, he picked up the luncheon meat tat I had in my lunch box, n put near to his lips. He dared not bite so after a few attempts to put near his lips, he decided to put it back.

After a while, he came again, picking up my chicken wing, n started biting!!! Oh my! My son is eating meat! We always thought he is a vegetarian!!!!!!! He couldn't stand the smell n taste of meat, whenever we feed him, he will either push it away or give the kind of going to vomit look.

I tried putting some luncheon meat into the rice n gave him spoons by spoons, n indeed he ate it all up! Both hubby n I were equally shocked, but happy.

When hubby was eating egg tart, he oso came wana try it out. But he dun like the egg custard. Only ate the crust ard the tart.. but is a good try n good start!

Evening, hubby da bao dinner again. Jaden wana try again! we were like, oh my! wat happen to him that day! haha! Hubby tried putting some long beans into the rice n give it to him, n he enjoyed eating! the long beans were fried with egg. He ate quite a lot of it...

How we wish he can b eating meat coz til now, he always hated eating meat! I'm so surprised, but hope he can continue trying out other food/meat!

Back to normal

After being bonkers for a few days, my precious prince is finally back to normal liao! yipppeee..

He was sick for the past 1 week, n thus his mood became super foul n was super irritating.

For e past few days, he would just cry n scream for quite some time, n it got on my nerves.. Made me collapse too. I was to depressed and affected by his foul mood. But luckily, ard Mon he went back to normal..

When it comes to learning, it gotta depends on his mood. Now, he could say all the 12 colours that he has in his crayon pack. He could recognise alphabets too. if u randomly choose an alphabet for him, he can say it out for u. He could also point out features like eyes, nose, mouth, ears, eyebrows, cheeks, legs. When he sees his infant pics, he would say tat is baby. He couldn't recognise himself when he was much younger. But he could recognise himself if it's the pics tat he is much older. He can also say out the people in the pictures.

Yest nite, my PILs were teaching him the spelling for apple, n surprisingly after teaching for a little while only, he could spell out the alphabets correctly, APPLE. This morn when MIL told me, i dun blif so i tested him, n indeed he spelled out for me. I was surprised.

MIL n I went to buy a poster of alphabets to put at their place, so tat can teach Jaden read other words. But, after Jaden saw the poster, n when we asked him how to spell apple, he couldn't b bothered to spell out but to run to the poster n point to the alphabet A, which has the apple word n picture on it. *faint*

Yes, i have to admit he is very slow in speech. Til now is only single word. but as i said, as long as he learns by the end of the day, I'll b happy.I do not want to see him becoming bonkers like last week, which can drive all of us mad. I like to see him smile n laugh loh.