Last Day of 2010

I couldn't blif it, today is the last day of 2010 liao!! yipppeee.. by the way, today is my biao ge's birthday. Hope he stay healthy n be loving with my biao sao always...

Today morning was a busy day for us. Yest had our wedding anniversary celebration at JP Swensens... Had eaten so full that our stomachs almost bursted out. Daytime til 6.10pm was in school... We need to 'move house'... so i need to tidy up my new workspace b4 i leave, so drag til so late then go meet hubby. My timetable for 2011 is terrible.. The more i see it, the more i feel like fainting. haiz, dun wish to talk abt tat now. When we brought Jaden home, I was busy preparing his hot water, washing milk bottles, preparing his pyjamas etc... Until a moment I need to go charge my iphone beside our bed, then I realised there lied a bouquet of flowers! I walked in n out of the room a few times n yet I didn't see. I was surprised n so happy abt it.

When we were eating at Swensens, I was still thinking y hubby didn't buy me flowers, which he will do every year, but I didnt ask him. I just kept quiet abt it. So, he actually did not forget lah.. haha... thanks hubby for remembering! Love u!

Well, back to today's prog. Jaden woke up at 8.10am.. great! just was wat I want.. We need to go to his childcare centre to settle his registration thingy n buy uniform.. Reached there ard 9.25am. Initially Jaden refused to come down, but after a while he tried to walk around in the centre n was curious. I hope Monday he can dun throw temper... Teacher explained to me abt the program in the morn, the lessons will be in mandarin. I tot it is in English?? But nvm... As long as he learns something in the centre.

It'll b a 3hr Nursery 1 programme... Monday will start school.. wow, i do look forward leh.. But I am mentally prepared tat he will not learn anything for the 1st month, bcoz i assume he will b crying. Will b sitting in with him for the 1st 3 days for the whole session.

Teacher said can see tat he is clingy, so may take 1 month to stop crying. Well, i expected it n will understand. Wat occupation am i in? of course.. n somemore this is my son.. I know it... haiz... hahahaha! Bought 2 sets of the uniforms for him. Had washed n hung up to dry. Monday can wear to school! Help me pray he can adapt soon ok? But dun expect much from him ya.. hahahhaa..

After tat went to NUH... Won't say much abt the details for this.. All I can say is, the test results are all ok, Jaden quite cooperative though in the beginning he was rejecting the test. Hope further diagnosis can further re-assure this worried mummy.

Today is the eve of the new year, but we dun wish to go aniwhere... coz I feel tired n we dun wish to squeeze.. So, hubby already told me yest, that we will say happy new year to each other softly when the clock strikes 12 midnite.. n y must say softly? bcoz hubby said, by then Jaden will b sound asleep. hahaha!

catch up session with current & ex-colleagues

Finally, today I can dress up nicely with short skirt n high heels... N can go out n have my own private time! Organised a catch up session with some of my kakis... current n ex colleagues from PHPPS.

Initially the gathering was in Nov, but bcoz of my private matters, gotta postpone til now.. somemore past few weeks some of them clashed with one another's overseas trips. So, plan at the last week of Dec is the safest. N finally, we managed to come out together successfully.

There are 7 of us today. Me, Tingting, Weili ( current still staying in PHPPS ), Bee Yan, Yifen, Kristene, Weixin ( left PHPPS for other perspectives ). These r my kakis.. of course I have other groups of kakis, but this grp much closer, and not all groups can put together n go out like tat.

Went to pick Bee Yan up at JE 1st before proceeding to IMM Swensens. She is so kind to buy me a pack of bird's nest, wanted me to take good care of my body. My health went through 2 times of turbulence, and she is very caring towards me. Thanks girl!

We stayed and chatted near to 5pm... Wow, i think the staff may find us noisy, n y so late still dun wish to leave Swensens. Hahaha. I love catching up with them, coz we can have so many topics, talked non-stop for 4hours+... I'm so glad I found some or even quite a number of good friends here. As u koe, it's not easy to find a 'friend' in a working environment. Yes, some of them may b v close with u, but those r fake ones.

I always thought, having a 知己, a few are enuf, or mayb even just 1 is enuf. I found my 知己 already. But still, I'm so grateful I have many friends who are sincere and real. They give u support n encouragement. When u feel low, they are around to stand by you and lend u a listening ear. Those fake close friends will shun u when u r in trouble. But I'm fortunate tat the friends around me are not fake. I trust my intuition, if i dun like this person, this person must have a lot of flaws or something is wrong with this person's personality. I'm not trying to brag. U all koe, I dun like to brag n I dun do that. My intuition normally quite accurate. N who r the people around my life tat i dun like? Very easy. Just observe my behaviour n attitude towards this person. I dun like to talk much to this person, n if he/she can stay away from me that would b the best. I dun like to hate/detest people. But some simply like to make me hate them. N how did they make me hate them?? behave the way i hate: brag, lie, arrogant, proud, show-off, rude, act...

I love catching up with my kakis... I want to organise another soon, mayb in Feb, or Mar. Coz we simply have too many things to talk about... anything under the sun. Though need to take care of Jaden, but I still wish I would have some little time for me to unwind n relax. I always wear rather casual bcoz of the active toddler, so give me a chance to dress up n let me koe that i can still be pretty lah! hahahaha!

We just grew closer

Recently, some things happened to my family... dun wish to talk more about it here, coz it's private... aniway not anything good lah..

In e past when we were younger, I always complain n not very willing to share a room with my sis. I've always wanted to have a room of my own, but bcoz parents got a 4-room flat, so have no choice but to share with my sis.

I still remembered when we were young, we used to quarrel so much... my sis n bro are closer. I'm just like a outcast, mayb bcoz i'm the middle child... hahaha... but indeed they can click better lah...

Ever since my sis decided to leave for Dublin, we were all v sad. It's only then we knew actually we care for each other. We r just too stubborn... I missed the time when I opened up the letterbox n found a parcel / envelope sent by my sis.. I recognise her handwriting aniway.. haha! We have more topics to talk about ever since we 'parted'.. Partly bcoz she left, partly bcoz i got married.

Now, my sis is permanently back. but of course we r not sure if she will still leave. All I know was, we grew closer. Now, we 3 siblings r much closer, n i was glad i have them. And through this big matter that happened at home, we then realised one another's real feelings. We r really siblings... Now, no more fighting... We understand one another better, we talk better to one another, we love one another, n we treasure one another.

What I wish that I can help them most is, when they r preparing for their wedding, I will help them in watever way I can. I will try my best, all bcoz they r my siblings. It is fate that we r in the family this life, n i dunno whether we have the chance again the next life. We, or rather I, was silly tat I didnt know how to treasure my siblings, but at least I know I will, from now onwards.

Merry Christmas!

Hohoho, merry xmas!!! here's wishing my readers a merry xmas 2010!

Had a good time playing at Chevrons yesterday nite with my best frd n her family... met the Tays for dinner at Hans... Of course together with our kids, Jaden n the 2 Ps... After which, went to the bowling alley to watch ppl play bowling, then playground, n after tat the arcade.. Jaden had a great time there..

This morn, we went to Bukit Panjang Plaza... brought Jaden to the Garden Plaza where there is a playground... He enjoyed so much tat he kept babbling his own language... After tat, paid $3 to let him play at the inflation playground.. He was rather unsure at the beginning, but after tat loved it.. He played til he was sweating n the whole face was red, coz it was rather stuffy in there..

Soon, holidays coming to an end.. n Jaden is starting school soon... A brand new start for 2011.

Looking to the end of December 2010

1 more week to our 3rd wedding anniversary, 1 week 1 day to the last day of December.. i was actually quite looking forward to it..

to some friends who know my situation, 2010 is not smooth for me, regardless in terms of work, family or health. I really do hope 2011 can give me some light.

Jaden is napping soundly now, thats y i can sit down n blog... haha.. n same goes to his dad.. his dad went to nap earlier than the son, leaving me to handle Jaden solely on my own. Well, i've gotten used to it. Now, besides blogging, I'm drinking my campbell soup, n waiting for the laundry to be ready, so tat i can go hang..

Didn't go out bcoz today the gas pipe inspection is today. Aniway it was v fast loh. He checked for less than 5min n he told hubby everything is fine.. arrrrggg... wasted a morning..

Jaden will be attending his playgrp/N2 in 2 weeks' time. the centre just called me in the early noon, telling me to go down next week to get the registration procedures done.. so had fixed it on 31st Dec morning, after tat will go down to NUH. We can either enrol him on 3rd Jan or mid Jan, but I chose to let him go on 3rd Jan. Dunno if he will adapt or not.. OK, i shall tell myself to b more optimistic.. if not Jaden will never be more independent. I hope he can learn some things n skills there, if not i will change him to another cc... BTW, Jaden now can sort the shapes independently liao... n we r so happy for him. He will look at us, waiting to be praised whenever he puts a shape in.. keep it up my boy!

Aniway our 3rd wedding anniversary i need to go back to sch for our year end AGM meeting. So sad ya... But nvm, hope to catch a nice dinner with hubby after work loh. Well, while time goes day by day, I was so eager to start afresh in 2011, hope 2011 can be smooth for me.

Jaden is 25 months old

It's the 21st of the month again, which marks tat Jaden is older by a month! It's really so fast tat he is 2 years old le..

Hubby went back to work today, n left both his wife n son at home. My sis came over to accompany us, n go eat together.

After eating at JP, we went to the park opposite JP.. We never went there b4, so wana bring Jaden over to let him have a run at the park.. hahaha.. but who koes the playground not v fun loh.. n was covered with sand...

Jaden wasn't sure of the place, so he was v careful.. haha.. but he quite like tat place lah. We prayed for good weather, but didn't expect it to be so sunny!!!! Stayed there for ard 15-20min, n it was really scorchy hot. We walked back to JP n enjoy aircon!

Jaden's face was so red, n he looked funny! hahahaha... changed a new diaper for him, then acc sis to GV as she wanted to watch movie. After which, we went to Kiddy Palace n bought a toy for Jaden. Thanks babe!

We went back to my house... chatted n also let Jaden have his nap. Chatted til ard 3.30pm n she needs to go off le as the movie was starting soon. My mood today was supposed to b v nice, but was dampened bcoz of a phone call. My prog for tmr was already fixed liao loh, n then now a bit of change. now dampen my mood to go for my facial for tmr.. dunno wana cancel or not. damn. I dun care whose stupid idea it was to have a change of my initiated plan, but do be sure of something. If u do this to me, next time it will be my turn. Just wait n see. Why dampen my mood? aiyo.. i hate it...

20th Dec - Monday not blue!!

Actually planned to bring Jaden to the zoo, but i looked at the sky, it doesn't look that great, so morn when we woke up, I bathed him... so was thinking, well, since not going to the zoo, then where shld we go...

Hubby was on mc today.. opppp hahahahaha!!!! I told him, we shall bring Jaden out, n he agreed too coz he promised me also... I told him, is either we go Changi Airport T3, or we go to the Universal Studios.. hubby said he preferred T3...

So, ok... i went to take my bath, packed Jaden's stuff, n there we went... Jaden was not clear when he was, so in the beginning he was willing to hold hands, but after walking a while, he started to run n refused to listen to instructions.. after a while, I made him sit in his pram since he dun listen n i gave him a few chances b4 that.

Went to the foodcourt to have lunch 1st b4 exploring T3... after which, brought Jaden to a mini playground beside the water fountain. He was happier to see the water than the playground!! was so excited tat he kept laughing, 'talking' n running.

We went on to walk around Level 3 and 4, searching for playground. We walked 1 big round.. Jaden went to play at the playground.. There was a girl playing too. initially he did not know how to climb up the slope.. after awhile by seeing the girl do, n he tried, then he managed to go up! Told him a few times to try the slide, then he was willing to walk to the other side of the playground to play the slide. He enjoyed himself. Running around the playground n running at the big space at T3.

Nothing much to play though... There was the big slide, but we weren't tat interested to go. So, after staying for 2hr+, we decided to leave. Jaden was crying out loud throwing tantrums. the pampers over flowed, so i need to bring him to the changing station to change while hubby waited outside. I thought mayb he can tahan til home then i feed him the milk, but he just refused to stop crying...

hubby was irritated, but i remained calm. We went to the carpark, i told Jaden i will make milk for him now, he was sobbing badly. Hubby went to put the pram in the boot, n the bags into the car. Once the milk was ready, Jaden kept quiet. Mayb bcoz he didn't eat porridge or cereal, tats y he got hungry easier n faster.

When we reached home, changed another diaper. I gave him some water, n after 15min, he napped. How I wish Jaden can be more obedient, though I think he might b good enough le, but no 1 is perfect I know. Whenever he grumbles or throws tempers, I can simply ignore n let him cry for a while b4 approaching him. I understand wat my best pal said le, it's ok to let children cry.

He was tired, and so do we. But it's ok. At least I know today is not a blue Monday. or at least, I dun feel blue..

A trip to Marina Square

A few days ago,I told hubby i wanted to go to Marina Square today, coz i wana go to a restaurant named Hippopotamus to try the food... so, today we went!! Just the 2 of us... Tmr, MIL will b going to her daughter's hse to stay n then Sat morn proceed to Kulim...

We accompanied Jaden frm morn til 3pm, then we went to Marina Square... We went to buy movie tix to watch Chronicles of the Narnia.. Had wanted to watch it long ago, but no chance... so gotta grab the chance to go b4 MIL leaves for Kulim.

The show was not bad, but we preferred the previous part... After we finished the show, it was dinner time.. But b4 the show started, we went for a quick bite at Long John, so not too hungry yet.. decided to walk around...

Hubby went into Royal Sporting House, n saw a Spanish champion jersey... he liked it.. so i said i will buy for him as x'mas present.. n then went to see shorts.. hubby loved to wear those shorts which are worn to play basketball.. the material is much softer... so i went to pay for these 2 items... Happily, we went to Esprit... hubby said wanted to get me something there..

I saw a bag.. both hubby n i think the bag was nice.. but is in white colour lah.. so i have to take gd care of it.. hubby paid for me, said is for my x'mas present!!! yippppeeee...

After which, went to G2000... hubby need to buy new long sleeved shirts, n pants... in the past he dun look good in shirts coz he is too thin, but now, though fatten alot, but look better.. after trying some shirts, pants, he ended up buying 2 shirts, 1 pair of pants, 1 belt with knuckle, 2 pair of socks.. damage was $206... He paid for them himself.. then he joked tat i shld buy these for his xmas present instead.. hahaahahaha!

Finally, we went to Hippo for dinner.. well, the food was ok, portion enuff if u r a big eater or someone who loves to eat.. we r too full to gobble down the food.. had steak, lamb chops, with starters like skewers, onion soup, foie gras, desserts... damage near to $100...

Spent quite alot of money today.. but once in a while shld b fine.. i think i need some time to relax too loh.. been too tense these few days.. i think i have shed far too many tears this year. I hope my tears will not drop again for the next few more days.. 15more days to 2011 loh.. pls bless me... I think I hurt my back again this time.. it's v painful, i raise up my right hand n it will hurt.. no choice i have to endure the pain.. tmr onwards i will need to take care of Jaden... i must bear with it...As i said, this year isn't a smooth year for me. tats y i need something like today's relaxation period. It's time to hold tight to my pocket liao... or else next mth v hard to survive.. hahaha!

1st hair cutting experience

U will never koe how terrible it is when u bring Jaden to the salon/barber to have his hair cut.. It's disastrous.. though he din struggle, but the crying sound is torturing enough.

I subscribed to the YP magazine, n was given a free gift of a bb hair trimmer... Just now after lunch i drove to SPH to collect. MIL n Jaden were with me. Jaden din nap today!!!!

When we reached in laws' house, we wanted to try out the trimmer.. aniway Jaden's hair is getting long, is time to trim also lah.. So, i tried cutting n trimming for him in the toilet when he was playing water. But didn't cut v nice, coz he was moving n turning around. MIL tried holding on to him but was hard lah. Did cut a bit, esp his side burns, but not balanced lah! hahaha.. I told MIL, nvm lah, cut a few more times n my skills will b better.. 1st time is always like tat lah... hahahahaha!!!

Evening 6+ went to pioneer mall for dinner... when we were happily watching TV, i was about to turn n feed Jaden his chawanmushi, n koe wat? He was sucking his milk bottle, n was 'fishing'.. he was almost going to doze off liao!!! It was so funny.. i told them to watch, he nearly shut off his eyes completely!! MIL quickly carried him n let him rest his head on her shoulders, coz i was still eating... the scene was simply hilarious!

Another thing, we bought the canes! Finally... I think he really need it now.. these few days he is beyond control, v unreasonable n naughty.. it's time to use the cane.. not just 1, but 2... he is really v bad.. can scream, shout n cry n struggle!!!! very angry with him. He just made hubby angry this morn... If he deserves it, he will get a chance to taste the cane.. watch out my precious prince. Imagine, normally i got beat him he is still v naughty n stubborn. if i didn't beat him at all, he will become worse. good luck ya, Jaden.

I hope my skills can improve lah, n hope in the future, he will have his hair cut at home loh.

Stressed

Some things is not tat u say u shoulder, n u can shoulder it up... things r not so simple as u think it is... u r too naive.. y choose to belif some1 who has no relations to u, n always not believing us?

If u really koe how to settle, u won't b sitting at home n watch tv, sit n wait for news...

My health has been giving me prob which made me nuts already, n now this super big problem comes in..i'm already suffering all these to myself quietly... whenever i cry over this matter, did u see? i bear all these myself.. wat about u?

Pls wake up... stop being so naive n stupid.. i'm v tired... i have my own prob to b troubled abt, n yet u add more to my shoulders. i have to intervene, bcoz i'm part of the family. why u always like that?? i'm really loss for words. please, take it as i beg u, pls dun add such stress to us.

The hot & sunny Sunday

Hubby applied leave today, bcoz he need to attend a wedding lunch at Bukit Batok CSC... yest, my PILs came back frm the funeral at Malacca, but we only brought Jaden over in the afternoon just now..

Drove hubby to CSC club, then i proceeded to go JP buy xmas presents for my siblings!!! I had wrapped up the presents! going to pass it to them this coming wkend or the next! Yippee... Thur will go buy hubby's present.. he said he wanted a belt... so will go n see n let him choose himself...

Dunno y, today morn when i got up, suddenly felt so emotional... hmmm... should i say emo? well, mayb my heart is full of envious kind of feeling, n not jealous.. i'm just so envious of other ppl.. wats wrong with me? think too much again i assume..

Just went online n bought concert ticket to watch Raymond Lam's concert in Feb!!! will b going with my sis.. yeah!!! i will need to hold my pocket n wallet tight for the coming 2-3 months.. will b quite broke... haizzzzz... my bonus has other usage... 1mth of it is to pay for my car insurance which is due in early Feb, n the other 1mth is for my Jan usage.. so there goes my bonus.. n i need to fork out my own savings to buy presents for my siblings, n treat my parents a lunch.. pressie for hubby n lunch.. n xmas presents for Princeton n Delroy.. So i need to hang on tight for the coming few months..

So fast is the mid of Dec liao.. I suggested some activities to hubby... to bring Jaden out during his off days.. n our pak toh date,just the 2 of us... I haven watch the Narnia loh!!! Angry,hope to watch this week... haha!

Wonderful week

We brought Jaden back home on Tues nite, all the way til now... Had went through a fantastic week with him...


We didn't go any far places lah, actually wanted to bring him to Universal Studios to take pictures, but hubby dun seem to be interested.. Nvm, next week i ask again... haha!



These few days had meals with my family.. to let Jaden see them more often... Even went to Tays' house on Thurs... Yest brought him to the playground beside our flat... he was quite happy!



Today morn, brought Jaden to Safra swimming pool, together with my sis... Jaden had a great time there.. Played for an hour, then we changed him... he didn't throw temper... Great job my boy! He was so happy tat he kept 'talking' in the pool...



Next week, may consider bringing him to Jacobs' Garden... See how it goes... coz next week hubby work long shift, which is til Wed... Tmr, hubby needs to attend a wedding lunch, so not going aniwhere... Yest he didn't sleep well, thus we din rest well too... Hope tonite can sleep better loh...

Jaden's progress

Though now i will still worry about Jaden's progress, but ever since he turns 2, he started to improve a bit here n there..

His language shld b the slowest.. til now, he still can't/doesn't talk.. but as i mentioned b4, he baby talks more now.. n wats worse now is, he 'talks' but all we dun understand, n is as if he's 'talking' in sentences one.. not short sounds...

Now when he goes other ppl's house, he dun cry n whine like b4... yest went to Kelly's house to collect pampers n milk powder, he din cry animore like b4 liao.. he dun wish to leave! but no choice we gotta go after taking the things s we were going to fetch hubby from work. MIL was with me yest.. When we reached hubby's working place, he hasn't knocked off. Brought Jaden to play with the stairs as he likes it alot.. He always needs our assistance in walking the stairs.. but wat scared me was, yest when he was walking up the stairs, he walked up ALL BY HIMSELF.. oh my! when did he master tat??? we didn't even koe.. mayb we r too protective liao bah...

Today, MIL went back to Malacca bcoz her SIL passed away.. So yest we brought Jaden home. He slept rather fast yest nite b4 11pm, n woke up at 9.40am... Just now went to Jack's Place to eat together with my bro n dad.. Bro was on leave... He smiled at my dad loh.. in e past, almost all the kids r afraid of him mayb bcoz he is dark...

We'll b taking care of Jaden solely on our own... dunno when MIL is coming back lah.. mayb next week bah...My bro said Jaden might start talking soon, n tats going to b scary coz when he really starts talking, he will not stop animore!! hahahahahaa!

Jaden's 1st attempt to feed himself

I always tell my friends n hubby, Jaden behaves n learns better when he is at our own house, n indeed wat I said are true...

Yes, i admit tat we have been spoiling him too much tat many things he still dunno how to do independently... hubby said bcoz he is our only child, tats y will spoil him. I answered, there's no wrong to spoil own child, but he needs to koe wat is right/wrong to do..

Today,i decided to let Jaden try eating on his own.. Yes, now at 2 years old, he still dunno. Surprisingly, he is quite enthusiastic in this! When he sees me holding on to the bowl of cereal, he koes he need to sit on his chair.. this is wat he will not do at my in laws' house.. He went to the room, as the chair was placed in the room with the table where he can draw on. He took the chair away from the table, n put it aside, n sat down to wait for me to feed him. Hubby was laughing saying his son is so obedient.

I told hubby he must praise me too, coz i was the one to train him loh!! So, when he sat on the chair, hubby put him to his toddler table. I put the bowl there, n he started trying to feed himself. It was funny. Hubby tried teaching him how to scoop the cereal up n put into his mouth. He was learning patiently. After trying awhile, we tried feeding him instead but he refused to, wanted to try on his own again...

But in e end, it was still me to feed him up all of the cereal. It was a great start. Kelly said next time onwards let him eat on his own. I will try. he is improving a little everyday.. yest at my parents' house he was oso ok, unlike in the past kept crying! We will try to let him eat on his own, as sooner or later in school he would need to do this on his own, the teachers are not going to help him loh..

Slow & Steady

Times really flies, Jaden is 2 years old liao.. I started to hate it when he throw tantrums like nobody's business n I can get really irritated.. Bcoz I think he should stop being so baby-ish already...

But on the other side, he is improving slowly n steadily... Yes, compared to other children at his age, he is considered slow.. Or mayb not tat smart.. but I have to admit that alot of 'stunts' he might b better than other toddlers... opppsss.. n where did he learn it from? I dunno loh!!

He is slowing to sort the shapes liao, n really more willing to do.. but when he got tired of playing that, he will throw the shapes away...

Jaden loves to watch the pictures n videos in my iphone. He likes to watch Princeton's videos loh.. everytime he watches, he will laugh... Sometimes when he watched the one that Kelly sung 'when u r happy n u koe it' song, he will quickly put the phone down n clap his hands.. coz Kelly's 1st action is to clap hands.. Today, when he saw the video that Kelly sent me, the one that Princeton played bowling, he so happy that he kept laughing.. Mayb i should buy 1 set n train him play too!

These 2 days, I tried singing the song to him n see if he will do the correct actions.. He v action loh, everytime refused to... But when I sang 'when u r happy n u koe it stamp your feet' n he will stamp his feet... But something funny, when sing til 'shout hooray', i showed him that he needs to raise both hands up.. he refused to.. when 'shout hooray', he would put his head down n wana kiss the floor.. I tried a few times n he did that loh! Faint...

He baby talk alot recently.. as if talking in sentences.. but all his own language.. sometimes he talk talk talk, he finds himself funny n he will laugh.. He plays iphone games, when is reading flashcards, he will look at us n expect us to read to him... I wonder if he really is like Princeton, listens more than talk... but if he really understands wat we want from him n do according to what we say then is ok.. at least we koe he understands.. but sometimes he doesn't, tat worries us.. I still blif in giving him some time.. mayb he is too comfy in his comfort zone, everything he wants we koe... There's pros n cons i koe...

When he enters school, he will need to speak up.. By then we will find him noisy le... He will start talking when he is ready. No rush.. instead of being so rush n impatient, i would rather him to b slow n steady...

1st December 2010

The calendar has flipped to its last page of the year, december. A new page, a new life, a brand new start.

It has been a typhoon in my life this year. Thought that the waves r gone n it's time to have peace n enjoy, but who koes a new tsunami came. Dun worry, I'll be brave.

2010 is coming to an end. I hope 2011 will be a better year for me. I've been through too much this year. I'm not as fortunate as others, I know. Sincerely hope others who r more fortunate than me can spare a thought for me, dun show your happiness in front of me, you'll be rubbing more salt to my wound, or trying to make me remember the sufferings that I've went through. It's definitely not beneficial for me.

I should start thinking my wishlist for 2011. Give me some time to think about it.

This is fate

I ask myself, does crying out loud make me feel better? I dunno... I didn't cry this time round. Mayb I should say I'm braver this time..



This is fate, i know. We cannot force. Mayb somehow, I'm already mentally prepared.. Or I should have guessed it..



I know it is disappointing, but there is nothing much we can do now. Grumble? Cry? I've cried enough the other time round. Last week i did cry too, cried all the way from the journey from there to home. But what else can I do but to cry? So, i was surprised I didnt cry this time. Mayb as i said, i had expected such result. All I can say is, this is fate. So sad isn't it?

Why? Why? Why?

I wonder why fate once again wanted to make me a fool now... n i dunno y.. why must such incident happen on us again this time? i koe i cannot blame ani1 or anything.. i cannot give up, n yet i have no right to do anything. wat can i do? by e end of e day, i still need to resign to my fate. is miracle going to happen on me? i hope there will be.. coz tat will b the best x'mas present for me..

Slowly, give him some time

This week is a long week, n tiring week for me.. yes, the pupils had started their holidays but not us.. so stop saying in front of me tat being our line is v good, pupils on holidays we oso holidays...

After being rather emotional yest towards a matter, those ppl who shld koe, yest was 22nd, Jaden started to give us a short surprise again.

Dun panic, slowly.... He til now still cannot speak... yes, but he 'talks' a lot more ever since his birthday passed on Sunday.. These 2 days specially a lot.. but all his own language lah... We didn't stress him or force him, coz we had gotten over that he will slowly catch up at his own pace.

This noon, I called MIL n asked if she will be cooking dinner tonite, n she said she wasn't sure.. then i heard Jaden's voice from behind... MIL said he kept talking n practising to talk... haha... When i knocked off from work, as usual, at the door i would call his name, n he would run to the door... I told FIL it proves tat Jaden has no hearing problem, but as in why everytime he called out for Jaden, Jaden would definitely ignore, i dunno. The only reason that I could think of was, bcoz he knows whether he responds or not, my FIL will still go near him n sayang him...

Just now, Jaden was playing with my iphone, as usual.. MIL n I were watching TV... He was sitting in the middle btwn us... He likes to play a certain game, not a game actually. It's learning ABC, colours, shapes, numbers n quizzes for each section.

Jaden switched to the colour mode... when he click the blue star, the phone will read 'blue'.. vice versa for red n yellow... n koe wat? when he clicked 'blue', the phone read out the colour, he followed suit but pronounced it as 'boo'... he clicked a few times n when the phone read he just followed n read. But when we went nearer to hear him say, he stopped n went out from the game... MIL n I heard it so clearly coz he read it out quite a number of times... n when it read 'red', i think he dunno how to read so he pronounced it as 'yee'.... that he also read a few times... but when i wanted to video it down with my camera, he totally refused to go to that game again..

We always wonder, y whenever he's on his own he would read together with the phone, or when we didn't look at him he would choose all the correct answers.. but when we r in this together with him, he would click anihow... MIL said actually he koes, but he just refused to say n do according when we ask him to...

He scribbles more now too.. MIL said today, he took the drawing board n scribbled.. normally he just stroke off the pen n drew straight lines across the board.. but today he could somehow like drawing in circular movement... not straight lines, are curl lines... I think he is starting to learn.

Slowly, give him some time... he may not b fast, but give him some time... I believe he can do it... well, do u think so too?

~~~ Jaden turns 2 ~~~~

Thanks every1 for your wishes! Yes, Jaden turns 2 today... It has been a happening weekend for this little prince.. n was happening for us too!

Yest noon, brought Jaden to a frd's house... My sis' frd actually... but we know one another.. Sylvastian's son 1st month celebration.. we stayed there for 1hour+ n needed to leave, coz Jaden was tired... his nap started from ard 2.30-6pm... after which in the evening, my best pals came over for a mini gathering... and of course with the little kids too! We ordered kfc n pizza, while Gladys helped to buy fried rice n ho-fun... Received presents from the Lees & Aws, ang bao from the Tays...

We had a great time chatting n seeing the boys having havoc at our house... Delroy was abit tired at the end, so the Aws left 1st.. Tays & Lees left near to 12am...

Jaden started his sleep at 12.30am... Woke up today ard 9am... Brought him to IMM, together with my mum n sis... My bro n biao ge came after that... Promised Jaden to let him play water.. When we were at the Garden Plaza, he patiently let us change him into his thermal swimwear, n there he went with his dad, to play...

He was so happy loh... kept laughing n jumping around... It was really a hot noon loh, can imagine i was sweating!!!! all bcoz i seldom sweat, if i sweat means really hot loh!!!! Near to 1pm, i really felt it was hot, n told Jaden he had to stop... He didn't throw temper loh! great job my son! changed him, my mum passed him his milk, n we put him in his pram...

Took him home n bathed him.. let him play awhile, n i fed him some cereal too... ard 2.15pm, i gave him some milk, n his nap started at 2.30pm... but sleep til 6pm he still not willing to wake up... we had a dinner celebration btwn 2 families this evening at 6.30pm... so at 6.10pm no choice we gotta wake him up..

Quickly went to Safra Jurong to meet up with the rest of the family members... Ordered a set meal... Jaden was well behaved in his high chair, partly bcoz he had iphone to play with... After the dinner, we took the cake out, bought by my sis... sung bday song for Jaden, but this birthday boy dun give face... cry loh!!! walao.... but luckily we managed to catch a full family picture before we left...

I found Jaden abit improving le... n i dun plan to rush him into watever... I blieve he will do so when he is ready... He spends the night at my inlaw's house tonite coz tmr both of us need to work.. went to meet up XL n WX as they bought a present for Jaden.. thanks!! It's the sincerity that counts! We had a great time this weekend, totally taking care of Jaden on our own.. n family time btwn us.. it was great! Finally he is 2 liao... I hope my son can b healthy n cheerful always... must b obedient n hardworking ok?? Daddy n mummy, n your family members love you a lot ok??

17th November - Hari Raya Haji

Yes, u r right! i work 1 day less this week!!!!! Yest was Hari Raya Haji...

Noon time, my sis called me to say, y not bring Jaden to JP n go for a walk... oh, i said ok ah! since my in laws were abt to have their usual activity... so my sis walked over to my in laws' house, n there we went...

I drove, while Jaden n my sis sat behind.. surprisingly he didn't make a fuss or what... Til we reached the carpark, he also allowed my sis to carry him loh.. for quite a distance, from the carpark to the lift, n then out from the lift...

After a while, i put him in his pram n we started pushing.. coz it was too crowded at JP.. went Kiddy Palace to buy some things for Jaden.. then go Mac buy lunch... after which, i drove back to our own house... Jaden was tired, coz when we were in the car, he put his head on the seat.. so when we reached our house, i let hin play a while 1st... changed his diaper n then make his milk... After awhile, he started his nap, n we started to eat our lunch..

We chatted awhile, then my sis went back... Jaden slept for 2.5hours only... Evening time, my in laws said settle own dinner.. so i ok loh.. my sis came over n carry Jaden, n i drive to my in laws' house.. put Jaden with them, n then went off to fetch my mum go Ikea buy a table for Jaden... It's for him to start sitting on the chair n do his things there... Is to prepare him for school actually...

Jaden is turning 2 this weekend, so I think he shld start learning more skills liao.. n tell u what, today, he started to try doing the shape sorter liao.. he started to look for the holes n put the shapes in.... Ya lah, some of u might think, aiyo now then do ah... Ya, he is slow lah... But he is learning now isn't he? My colleague just told me today tat actually Jaden is not slow.. Dun say slow or fast... it's ok one.. so in their eyes, i am v gam jiong... hmmm.. ok mayb i should heed their advice, take it easy. but to b frank, i'm already taking it v easy liao.. coz i know he might not learn as fast as others, but now he is learning liao.. so i'm equally happy. So, please dun use your child n compare with mine... i don't want... thank you...

Jaden finally points

I'm actually v worried about my son... u guys might say i think too much, but sometimes i just couldn't control myself...

Being an educator, i encountered so many diff kinds of pupils a year... When i read up on some infor that if child dun do this or tat at this certain stage of age, then it might be a sign that the child is special.

I'm always v scared tat Jaden might be an autistic child. I told my concerns to hubby's god-sis, who studies psychology. initially she oso suspects that, even my fil will ask my mil abt this. But my mil dun think so..

Jaden used to be so cheerful n has many eye contacts, but ard 6months old he suddenly stopped. he became less babbling, seldom eye contact. i am so worried. Recently he has shown so much improvement, which actually surprised me, though was rather slow n late. But s i said, as long as in the end of the day he did it, i'm happy.

Jaden's motor skills r better. Recently, besides willing to do shape sorter, do flying kiss to us, listening to instructions better, he finally points too. When he doesn't point, i am so scared loh. in the past when he was much younger he would, but after tat he stopped. so now, he starts to point, i'm relieved. but when he points to the various pictures in the flashcards, he did it to make fun of me. He points to apple n waits for me to read, n then points to orange, snake, yo-yo etc.. when he points faster, i need to read faster, he felt it funny n kept laughing. & of course, kept pointing lah... more on making fun of me!!!! but at least we know, he points!

I know he is slow. I dun grumble, n yet I dun like ppl to show off to me what their child can do n then perform in front of me. i got so numb of it. He is turning 2 next week liao, so fast loh. He babbles more now too. Mayb he will catch up more after his 2nd birthday. N hope he can learn more when he enters CC.... luckily my son isn't those type of rough boy, but too crybaby liao.. It's ok, he needs to know tat his daddy n mummy loves him truly!

Air Tickets for 2011's CNY

hubby started to ask me AGAIN, as in r we going back to Kulim for 2011's CNY... my reply is always the same: see how....

PILs asked him again, i assume they dun dare to ask me, so ask hubby... n hubby reverted back to me.. so in order to make him give up, i went to Tiger Airways & Jetstar to check on the air tickets... n koe wat? a 2-way trip cost $500+/pax... i told hubby about this, n he was shocked.. so yest currently stopped the topic.. so PILs planned to take the coach back on their own, w/o us.. coz they know i will not want to take the coach.. Jaden cannot take the long hours coach journey.. the Genting trip has proven to them, so taking the plane is the only way out.

I was still rather happy actually tat we may not go back for CNY liao... opppsss.. but who koes just now evening hubby's cousin called n told my PILs that Air Asia's air tickets r v cheap... She went to check on the price, going back on CNY eve, n back on the 4th day of CNY, per pax only $200+... My PILs quickly agreed n the cousin helped them to book.

Hubby asked me again, n after the confirmation, his cousin sms-ed me the details. hubby double checked the price with her, n told me hey it is cheaper loh, so much cheaper... he asked me again wana go back... i answered him, up to u loh see wat u think. then he told me that i shld koe his answer...

So, no choice loh... went home, hubby asked me to go on net n checked the price n see e availability of the seats.. still have.. so i went to book the tickets for the 3 of us loh. so, it is confirmed tat we will b going back to Kulim for 2011's CNY loh.. hmmmmm... Shall see how Jaden will give me a hard time there.... God bless me......

P2 outing to the Kids Kampong

Yest though feeling slightly unwell, but i still went to school, coz yest was our P2 class' outing to the Kids Kampong... This year, for this English SEED programme, CL teachers are required to go with the class, together with the form teacher.

Yest morn was raining, luckily b4 we set off, the rain had stopped, n the whole outing was fun n cool..

Children got to learn how to 'catch' fishes using the small net provided, learn the diff btwn gerbil, hamster n mice. they even got the chance to touch them. Followed on they use the feeding seeds provided by the owners to feed the fishes, roosters, rabbit, ducks etc.. Can see that they enjoyed themselves!

Though they r not v clever, but all of us can see them putting effort in the studies already. They deserve a pat!

After the outing, we went back to sch... after work, went back to see my precious little darling! as usual, he will get to play our iphone... n wat surprised us was, he finally how to swipe the potato to the mayo n then to the moving man for the smash fiesta game... n he also was learning how to arrange the alphabets in the correct order for the words... i'm glad that he is learning.

Today was on mc again, n is on 2 days mc.. Doc asked me to go on antibiotics liao, coz the cough dun go off n this is e 2nd week... just now after breakfast, Jaden was asking hubby for his iphone again... n when hubby took it out, Jaden mouthed out something like "o-pone".... n said twice... we were laughing at him, saying that it shld b pronounced as 'handphone'... dun tell me he is going to talk soon?? hmmmm... let's observe further...

Fun weekend

All thanks to the Deepavali long weekend!!!! Though didn't bring Jaden home at night due to my bad cough, but for the consecutive 3 days, he was at our house having nap!

Yest morn, brought Jaden to IMM for water play... had breakfast together with hubby, mil n also my elder sis..

Jaden enjoyed his water play there man.. but this time round was good that, when we told him it was time to stop playing, gotta change him n go home liao, he didn't scream n shout... Good boy!! We told him, he did a good job by not throwing tantrums.. n promised him we will bring him here again!

Evening time, brought him back to in laws' house, after which met the Tays n Lees for supper at JW for frog leg porridge.. the Tays drove their 7-seater car, n we went off late.. reached home around 1.30am...

Today, hubby went to work as usual... morn met my family members at Yew Tee Point for breakfast.. my bro drove the rest of my family while i drove my mil n Jaden... after breakfast we went on our own ways... in the noon, i brought Jaden home for nap.. I didn't put on the car seat this weekend, tats y no choice but to take bus with him, n carry him home..

The Tays came over with dinner just now.. bcoz i was alone with Jaden at home... Had a chat, though Jaden did cry a bit here n there lah.. the worst was he refused to get on their car, as the Tays drove us back to in laws' house as my car was there too. Took a while b4 he can stop crying n watch the tv in the car... i supposed he only wants to sit on my car.. bcoz he oso cried n protested when he's on my brother's car... oppppssss...

Tian can pronounce Aunty May so clearly now.. hahahaha.. n i was glad tat he likes to come to my house... How I wish Jaden can b more open up to people around him.. this weekend wasn't as boring n plain as the usual weekends...

Happy Deepavali!!

Yes, it's me who is getting absent-minded! Today is Friday only, not Sat! It's Deepavali.. "Happy New Year" to all the Hindu friends!

This week i was sick, so i only worked 2 days instead of 4.....

Though still down with bad cough, but still went ahead with our date with the Tays. The only diff was, i didn't bring Jaden home to sleep... this week won't bring coz of my cough, n is a bad one.

This morn, went over to 817 n fetched Jaden to meet the Tays for Mac bfast at Pioneer Mall, then we proceeded to Safra Jurong's Kids Amaze. Tian was so funny, he insisted to sit in my car, in the end Jiayi had no choice but to acc him to sit in my car, while Rod drove the car himself n gather at Safra.

We only stayed for 1.5hours, while Tays stayed a while longer. It was bcoz hubby had another apptment. He was going to his colleague's house for Deepavali. He said dun wana bring Jaden over, so in the end only we both mother n son at home... Jaden enjoyed himself so much at the indoor playground til he was reluctant to leave!!!! But just now he did do flying kiss to Jiayi.. haha!

Hubby went off after reaching home at 675.... so i alone bathed Jaden, n fed him cereal, n then milk after which was nap. I told him to sit on his blue chair if he wanted to eat, n indeed he sat down n eat the whole bowl of cereal which i had prepared for him. his nap started at 2pm, n was til 5.30pm! amazing hoh!

Today, Jaden's very own toilet bowl arrived too! I plan to train him during my holidays... i koe this cannot b rushed, but i will try. It is diff from potty, it is a toddler toilet bowl. mini size of the toilet bowl we have in the toilet. Hope to train him to do his 'business' there.. i koe it will take time, but as i said, i will try.

It's always like tat. buy this not useful then will buy the other.. will keep buying n trying til it is successful.. haha... tmr morn hope the weather is good coz wish to bring Jaden for a swim leh! not swim lah, shld say play water... haha... i hope he sleep well at 817 tonite, so tat tmr he will b an energetic boy!

Jaden's flying kiss

Aiyo, my 'good friends' are here to visit me again... arrrggg... was on mc yest n today. tmr going back to work.. yest evening was having high fever 38.8... n my bad cough was still bugging me..

These 2 days were with Jaden.. but not v close to him as i was sick... just wana update abt him doing the flying kiss.

Usually b4 i drove off to work, we will always say bye bye to Jaden. MIL will always try to make his wave n do flying kiss, but everytime he just refused to do, but to smile... a few days, when i was about to leave, the usual routine, say byebye to him... n he also put his palm to his mouth doing flying kiss. I managed to video down on Monday b4 i went to work, n luckily i succeeded!

Today morn, went for breakfast with my sis, together with my mil n Jaden. saw my 4th uncle. my uncle asked Jaden to high 5 with him, n he did with a smile at my uncle. After breakfast, we drove my sis back home 1st. b4 my sis stepped out of the car, she said byebye to Jaden, n Jaden did the flying kiss to her! n a few times somemore... everytime he does that, he will smile n laugh with a shy look!

Noon time, gugu came over with curry chicken n curry fish. of course it's not for me... she played with Jaden, n they were playing catching. Jaden enjoyed alot.. so when gugu wanted to leave, i carried him to the gate, asked him to say byebye to her. of course as usual, he refused to open his golden mouth, but he did flying kiss to her... haha.. it was funny.

i wonder when he can say out 'byebye'.. but we r happy enough tat he is willing to do flying kiss, rather than in e past refusing to do anything but to turn away. i hope he can b more friendly n interactive. so tat more ppl r willing to play with him. Let's see how many more surprises he can give us for the coming few weeks.

Things tat happened on the last day of October

In a short while more, we'll be flipping over a new page of the calendar.. Today is the last day of October! N yet, today i wana share with u guys the 2 big things tat happened today.

As usual, in the morn, i got the car seat ready. thought tat after breakfast, mayb in the early noon i will bring Jaden home, but who koes the house is quiet. u guys shld koe wat i mean. Brought Jaden out for breakfast. When we were out from the lift, MIL wanted Jaden to walk on his own, coz sometimes he simply refused to walk n demanded to be carried.

So, at the void deck, Jaden walked to the other side of the wall, n who koes, POMP sound, he fell on the ground, flat. After which came his bitter crying sound! He hurt his lips n it was bleeding. Both MIL n I were shocked, coz he was just away from us for less than 2 seconds when the accident happened. I quickly ran over n carried him up. Jaden was crying like mad, n let MIL take over while I quickly took out the wet tissue to clean his bleeding lips. He felt so painful tat he couldn't stop crying. His legs and hands hurt too.

It took us a little while to cool him down n tried to divert his attention not to think about his swollen lips. After awhile, the bleeding stopped, but his upper lip was swollen. But luckily, v fast he forgot abt the pain. though he found his lips different. He could still drink water from his milk bottle. I was heart pained n sms-ed hubby abt the matter.

Jaden rarely hurt himself so badly, mayb bcoz we protected him too well... very sson he forgot abt the pain though swelling still exists. It didn't stop him from drinking n even eating. occasionally he will use his finger to touch the swollen part. This was 1 of the matter which I wana share. But no worries. After a nap n til now, the swell went down quite a lot. I think will take a few more days to b fully recovered. All I hope is no ulcer...

The next matter which I wana share today was, Jaden scribbling. All the while, when i pass him the drawing board n wanted to teach him to scribble on the board using the pen, but he simply refused to. But today, when MIL was going through this with him, he was willing to scribble using the pen. Yes, i koe, it's slow right?? But i was happy enough that he is willing to scribble. I will get a table for him b4 the holidays, coz I plan to teach him to scribble n colour when i start my break. Being able to scribble is 1 of the stage tat toddlers should come across. Though he reach this stage a bit late, but is ok. as long as he will.

Tingting told me something on Fri. She said, Jaden started all these suddenly, isit got to do with the rituals that he had gone through? I said i dunno. n now, this scribble stage comes too. I told her whether it has got to do with the ritual tat somehow may had 'helped' him, but no way tat i will bring him for the ritual again. i dun wish Jaden to go through that n made him so scared. She said, mayb bcoz of this tats y he started to catch up. I koe we shldn't b so superstitious, but i just act according to my in laws' idea. But it is enough, 2 times r enough. no next time, really.

No matter if his progress got to do with the rituals, I just feel happy if he is catching up. As long as he is not as wat i think (autism), i am ok. Very soon, he is turning 2. I just hope tat all will b smooth for him, and he can catch up with other peers ard his age. He had gone through a lot of misery compared to other toddlers already. It is time for him to be as normal as other kids liao, isn't it?

My car finally broke down

My Kia Rio has been with me for less than 2 years, but to b frank, i dun take good care of this current car compared to my Picanto. In the past, i will wash n clean n vacuum my Picanto every wkend, but ever since i changed car, i dun do tat animore. even if din go petrol station wash for a mth or 2, i oso ok.

For the past 2 weeks, i could sense tat my car may go 'mad' soon, as sometimes i started the engine, i would trip n need a few tries b4 i could get my engine moving. I could foresee tat the battery needs replacement, or something is wrong with e starter. But i was wondering, i just went to check my car batt lifespan ard 2 months ago, n the mechanic told me still have 80% left, how come so fast die liao? my bro was thinking mayb is the starter's prob.

Bcoz i was busy this week, so i was still praying hard tat it could tahan me til next week then i drive down to either Kia or the petrol station near JP to check on my car batt. n who koes, today it cannot move at all!!

In e morn, tried to make the car move but couldn't. No choice gotta go take bus, Jaden was angry y we got off the car, so he cried bitterly. Luckily mr bro was abt to go work, so he drove over n gave us a lift. As i had something to attend to in the morn with Kelly, so I gotta send hubby n Jaden over to my in laws' house 1st.

After settling the matter, I called my 4th uncle, see if he could help me with my car. He helped me call the mechanic. Just b4 the mechanic reached, my uncle received a call n he need to make a move 1st to do delivery, so i was left alone in the carpark, waiting for the mechanic.

Finally the mechanic came, he helped me check n was confirmed tat the batt died. So he helped me jump start my car, n i had to drive my car to follow his, to his workshop to get the batt replaced. N finally, the batt was replaced n I proceeded to go meet my sis for lunch.

Haiz, i tot can stand til next week, but who koes it died today. But luckily, it did not die while on the road. so should count myself lucky lah. Next mth, i will need to send my car to Kia for servicing. Need them to check on my air con filter n engine oil etc. I'm praying everyday that dying of batt n tyre being pierced would not happen to me, esp on the road. Haiz, money spent just like tat. Car is indeed a liability.